I had killed them, my friends were dead because of me. Zero, Asuka, Kasumi, and the others. All their efforts wasted. I didn't even deserve to be alive. I should have died with my mom and dad and the baby, who I had killed. I should be with them. Maybe then, my friends would still be alive.
I tried to block out my mother yelling that it was all my fault, but she was persistent and had followed me into the darkest corners of my mind until I couldn't hold her out any longer.
She was in front of me now, talking to me, though I was unaware of what she was saying. I wouldn't look at her, there was no emotion left in me. What was the point of living if all my friends were gone?
My mother was shaking my shoulders now, violently, yelling at me. I thrashed out, trying to get away from her. I didn't want her to touch me. She wasn't even a mother; she had never acted as such to me. She whipped out a knife and rushed at me with it raised high above her head.
I could hear voices, the voices of Kasumi and the others, but that wasn't possible. They were dead. I had killed them. It was my mind playing tricks on me. I shook my head. Was I going to have to deal with this my whole life? Maybe it was better to let my mother take me now.
Suddenly, I felt like my body was moving, but it was still all black around me. The voices were getting louder, but I couldn't see them. My mother knelt at my side, telling me I deserved to suffer for what I had done.
She stabbed me in the stomach, twisting the knife around. I screamed out in pain, thrashing trying to get away. It felt as though someone was holding me, and I felt like my arms and legs were connecting with something, but I knew it wasn't my mother.
She was smiling at me so eerily, pulling out the knife, she cut at my shoulder. Laughing maniacally as she did so. I was crying now, tears falling freely. I did nothing to prevent them. I couldn't believe what I had done; but this was a just punishment. I deserved to die like this.
Suddenly, I felt as though someone was holding down my arms and legs, restricting me from moving. I could feel I was lying on my back. MY mother sat beside me. When she stabbed me again, all that I could move was my torso, and it thrusted forward.
My head flopped to the side, as my body began to go into shock. I felt myself shaking. I closed my eyes, and I could feel someone hold my hand. When I opened them again, I saw KAsumi, Tamotsu, and two others I had never seen before.
It was all a trick of the mind. They weren't really there. They couldn't be. They were dead. I turned my head away to the other side, refusing to look at them. They were only ghosts, figments of my own imagination. "I'm sorry," I told them.
Continue?
If I confused anyone, her nightmare is started to wear off because the poison is leaving her body. So, her real body was thrashing around like it was in her dream, and at the end, she really did see everyone, but she thinks she is still in her nightmare.
