~Jake
I could smell the blood even when I was unconscious. I cared that I wasn't dead, but the image forging in my head was a memory long forgotten that I didn't want to remember.
The image of my mother dying in my hands, her blood on my hands. It had been my fault, but she didn't blame me. I had already blamed myself. She repeatedly said it wasn't my fault, and that I was right to kill my father, and her, by accident. I didn't understand what she had meant, and probably now I do, but loads had been put on me at age ten.
Blood was splattered all over me, the image of my family dead around me still lingering. My sister had escaped, but my father dead and my mother dying in my arms. She told me never to blame myself, and to never take anger, like most lions, and make it live inside you.
After mom had died, I had stayed there the whole night, and then went on my way the next day.
The image of mom that stayed in my head made me wake up and be in my human form.
My head hurt like hell, as did my shoulder and leg and I groaned. Pierce looked up, I noticing him barely, along with the human I had seen with the group, and almost practically keeled over with the pain coming from my head and leg. Shit. How bad had I been hurt?
Pierce didn't say anything, but the human came over and started to look over the bandages. I didn't mind really, but I could smell a lot of blood around me, and it wasn't just mine. I could smell the wolf unconscious back with the group, deer blood, Pierce barely, and another wolf's. Maki, I believe it was, and I was getting a feeling with the smell of blood that she wasn't alive. That was why Pierce was so glum.
I flinched with the images and words in my head as I held my head, and feeling a bandage on it, and looked at my leg. Wonder how long it would take for me to redo all the bones and joints in it. My shoulder shot pain into me and that was when I noticed the shoulder was practically just falling apart. And that I was in the nook of the bear that he was sleeping in and that the bear was gone.
"You okay?" the human asked and I barely glanced at him as I kept my eyes on how much I was bleeding.
"Yeah," I groaned as I stood and hopped over to the wall and leaned against it and looked at Pierce. I could see he was debating about staying here or going back to the wolf.
I limped over to Pierce and put a hand on his head and he jumped and looked up at me, only a hint of confusion in his eyes.
"Don't blame yourself for what happened. It's something you don't want lying on your soul. Trust me. I have it lying on mine," I whispered, I not believing that I was even saying this. I blamed myself a little though, for what had happened with him not being there for his girl.
"Go. She needs you more than I do," I told him with a look of sternness and he looked quickly back at the entrance and then back at me and then immediately rushed out of the cave and back to Maki. I looked back at the human.
"I'm fine. The bandages will hold for now," I told him and he didn't say anything, so I just limped out of the little den and went to the back of cave and sat down carefully and stared at the wall in front of me.
I was thinking about mother.
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Yeah, some of Jake's past revealed! DX It's sad.... And he kind of blames himself for Maki's death, since Pierce had stayed with him and instead of with Maki... Jake's in a good mood, right now, so he doesn't bite lol XDD
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