Pierce -
"M...M-Maybe I should get going..." Abby said quietly, twiddling her indext fingers desperately and looking down.
My first impulse was to shout 'no'! And...Honestly, I almost did, "N--!! Er...N...Uh...I mean, n-no, please, don't go." I finally muttered, quietly enough as to not seem like a complete creeper. "I'm a bit...lonely." I chuckled nervously, hoping she wouldn't take me as weak for admitting it. I didn't look her in the eyes as I went on, "It's just...hard for me right now. I..guess, I need someone to talk to, or I don't know what'll happen..." I looked down at the floor, sighing, "The Girl who...died in the group...Maki. We were close, and...and for so long she was all I had..." I sunk my shoulders down, "Gods, I'm sorry, forget I said anything." I lifted my head and faked a tiny smile, "You can leave if you want to, Abby. I don't want to make you uncomfortable." I looked at the beige walls again...Well, they weren't quite ugly to me anymore...Just dull, and worn. Unappreciated by the rest of the color wheel, and made to look even worse with the charming golden lighting blaring into it. and making it think it just wasn't pretty enough to belong on a wall, and should just be torn down...
I was brought out of my thoughts by a warm, slender hand resting upon my shoulder. I looked up into two warm, kind eyes, "It's okay...I mean...It's okay to be sad. Death is hard on us all, especially if you were close..." Abby's face fell by a fraction, but then went back to comforting, "Did you...love her? Maki, I mean?" She asked quietly.
My first answer would have been yes. Forever. Something stopped me as I thought about it, though. I sighed, time for honestly. Not loyalty, for once, "Maybe...Toward the end, I guess I did...I always thought I did...ever since her brother had died..." I looked up pitifully, "But, I think..." I swallowed hard, "Now that I can think about it, really...It was just an obsessive protection. She was one of the only ones who had bothered to get to know me...y'know? I never payed her much mind until...I was right there when her brother died, and I feel like I let her down...I told myself it was love I felt. I told myself I'd never let the poor, sickly girl get hurt..."
I shook my head, "Not...really. I cared for her deeply, so much it hurt...But, I don't think it was love. It could have been, had I saw through my own obsessive need to be near her and save fer from the world around her." I smiled blankly, "I could have loved her if I had seen that that was exactly what she didn't want."
I sighed deeply, then smiled a little, "To answer you, no. I was obsessed with thinking I did, but in the end...I loved her like a sister, and I liked her so much that if I had gotten over myself I could have loved her for something more."
Abby looked at me sadly, then, out of the blue, hugged me, shocking me out of my stupor. "It's okay if you're sad, Pierce...You don't have to hide it. I mean...I'm here for you, okay? You don't have to suffer all alone."
I blinked, then blinked again. I was soon blinking very swiftly, and it took me a minute to notice I was blinking away tears. I scolded myself silently for my weakness, but then hugged Abby back tightly, but not tight enough to hurt her, I smiled, "Thank you, Abby. That means a lot to me."
I let her go and stepped back, smiling again, but looking at her, "Your face is still a little red...You're positive you don't have a fever, right?" I asked worriedly.
Abby felt her face lightly and it flushed a little redder, but she shook her head and smiled a bit, "No, I'm fine, Pierce. Promise."
I frowned for a minute, then grinned, "Fine, fine. C'mon, let's go to the lobby, and, since you've now heard my sob story, how about you tell me about yourself?" I gestured down the hall.
Abby blinked, and then smiled warmly, "Sure."
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Done!! XD
Sorry ya had ta wait so long Amestar!
The secret was revealed! :O
Pierce felt like he owed Maki, and mistook it for love--Don't get me wrong, he still loved her a lot, just...not quite the way he thought. ^^;
He's a guilty soul. ;
