There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
I dance in a circle of fire.....
Closed my eyes, blinded by fears,
Mute like always
for you.....
I suffer for your attention.....
your love, your smile and sympathy.....
I have no choice
but to follow you.....
You are here.....
but I am gone.....
I feel used.....
when I shouldn't feel at all.....
not even the knife you've thrown in me.....
I am far beyond patient.....
I let it all pass.....
Like the shadow of a geisha.....
Dancing like the breeze in your icy eyes.....
at midninght.....
Running my hand across a wall.....
It's cold.....
It's like touching death.....
I touch the other wall next to it.....
and I kiss it.....
It's like kissing you.....
I leave this hell.....
but my shadow will still wander around these walls
I painted with blood.....
How many times did I try to get to you?
Only I know.....
and these walls.....
I run my frozen hand for the last time.....
The walls are closing me in.....
I will be dust.....like the blood on these walls.....
Say goodbye to me.....I deserve at least that.....
Paint my face white
with the hate that poisonned us.....
Dye my hair black
with the remains of my heart.....
Paint my lips red
with your frostbit fingers.....
And blind me with your kiss.....
Dress me in shadows.....
And take my soul
out of my chest.....
Don't mind me screaming.....
I just cry.....
and I sing.....
in a hymn.....
my torture.....
Strangled by what was once my love.....
You are not even a demon.....
You decayed.....
like everyone.....
my beloved killer.....
Send me to Mephistus.....
and end this overrated story once and for all.....
Amen.....to all good things that happened.....
I am frozen here.....
For millions of years.....
like an ancient butterfly in amber.....
I cannot move.....
I cannot breathe.....
I'm surrounded by precious void.....
that everyone sees.....
except me.....
It chokes me.....
Strangles me.....
I can no longer see you.....
as now I'm burried in your heart.....
Just put the cross.....
and say 'Amen.....'
I am now dead to you.....
and to the world.....
Tie me around your neck,
so I be.....
close to your heart.....
for eternity.....
I will might hear your heartbeats.....
but you will never hear mine.....
*~Amber dream~
What I was.....
died in the shadows.....
What I am.....
Is broken in a thousand pieces.....
What I will be.....
.....dust.....
Who I was.....
is foreign to me.....
Who I am.....
is dead.....
Who I will be.....
.....nothing.....
What I became because of you.....
.....wreck.....
What you became because if me.....
A killer.....
a cold blooded creature.....
I made you decay from your perfect world.....
What we became because of a bitter kiss.....
Numb entities.....
Where I walked
~void~
Where you are
~darkness~
Where we are.....
.....nowhere.....
