There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
Murder the lights
within your grasp
while breathing hard
as i cannot reach to touch your cold skin
twirling passions choke me
and tears make me laugh in hysteria
i cry out
i shout and grin mad
at you
you
you
mirrors see no moonlit gaze, but
rotting flesh
and
misery.....
symphonic breezes,
in calls for your god as you forgot His name
your Lord's name
delirium in monochromes
whispers never stop
grab my wrists tight and don't let go
life was a lie
for which one of us?
it's impossible to lose my trace
in dust, fire and midnight
i smile and say
"I love you too"
You're scared of me, now are you not?
of the fact that i still stand
i haven't fallen and i rise
higher than you can perceive
My feelings seemed to blind you
Soulless angel, my so-called love defined in hell
Smile back, let go, there's nothing i can do
i won't fight you and i can't
it's hard to figure
why you're scared?
why ARE you scared of?
the one who loves you?
you wish to kill me?
you can't do that
laws of moral drop the knife from your hands
and my tears dry in a grin
~"you cannot kill me"~
['cause i don't exist]
Sharp, beautiful gaze
stole and rip the lover's heart
-without mercy-
She looks around
covers the mirrors
she does not wish to see herself
beautiful monster with a surreal voice
[dark royalty of the abyss]
Enclosed in myths she stays immortal
a femme fatale without a soul
a withered sense of humanity
-she sings away a lullaby-
of all the souls she lost in time
from guilt of others's poision thoughts
so close to death she was as well
~afraid, unites her hands in prayer~
Lord i lost, never let me pass
in fire and ice so cure my sins
cannot reach out nor cannot fly
-my wings of dust left me to parish-
i bow to sunset's crimson swirls
the ponds of skies choke me in tears
the mask i put away strips me from life
[and i surrender to the night to come]
forgive all sins of my heart
relief the pain in a warm touch
remember me as i was imperfect
searching for You, and wishing i could be there
i am not worthy for Your Heaven
i only wish for life to keep within my hands
under your protection
with withering voice i tie a prayer
small yet filled with gratitude
my eyes found You once more
and i live for now
may the sky and earth regain their balance
may we not cry and fear
may we surpass this moment
and live longer, harmoniously
my empty words, my God
show confusion and fear
dear God, help us all
awaiting for brighter times, tremblish i say
~amen~
like a virus
Cripple the sound of my heart
beating next to yours
a mockery
a joke
a shabby game
i love
i hate
and posess.
covered my eyes with a veil of shadows
to hide the blush and tears
distort the fun in an abstract shape
cry out sharply
your empty gaze conquers the sky
hush~
nothing is as it used to be
jerky, intense, mute
music rings in my mind
you you you
[swirl around my thoughts and crush them in your grasp]
-egocentric demons laugh at the scene of murder-
~what am i looking for?~
