There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
From the ashes i wish to rise
with the hope you will take my hands.....
From fears i dare to escape
because you guide me.....
Towards the stars i crave to fly
knowing you will are there.....
with your soul.....
Come and sway me gently.....
I'm begging you.....
don't crush me.....
allow me to be.....
your light
in the sea of doubts.....
I raise my hands towards the clouds
believing i can tare them.....
I have gone beyond self.....
the ME is lost in mists.....
thoughts carry me to you.....
angel of my sick mind.....
YOU make me transcend.....
Take me with you
and at least try
to burn whatever happened
as new horrors will occur,
my love.....
Was I devoured by hate?
Was it you?
Or were we boh in the same lake of tarr
in which we screamed our lives for understanding?
Forget the last things I've said
They now mean nothing
and nothing will remain
after we will get this straight.....
Do you like me around you?
or am i standing in your way?
Do you enjoy hearing my voice?
or you prefer to play deaf when i come to you?
Am i important? I?
No.....
You are important for me
and my existence hopefully won't hide
your glamour under my non-significance.....
Look at me again, please
and say something.....
I wish to hear you now.....
or else i will disappear......
in an unknown place.....
Save me from the disorder heaven,
stay close to me.....
or at least try.....
my words are not enough, i know
but give me the illusion that you care for me.....
write to me.....
speak to me.....
look at me.....
or just embrace me....
and that's it.....
I wish to float in the wind.....
but my wings are broken.....
I wish to enlighten your path.....
I wish I could help you.....
but you are far away from me
and I am blinded by tears.....
I wish to stop craving for you.....
but my heart is weakened by your silence.....
You crushed me in your mind
and the silence wipes whatever remains......
from the corpse of what was once called affection.....
Once, I must've loved.....
I made a mistake.....
and now I pay.....
just like that.....
He reached out for me,
but I didn't see
~That he was craving for me.....~
I was stupid.....
and so blind.....
Coudn't leave it all behind.....
I wish to see him once again....
Strange pain pierces me
like it never did before.....
Like a venom that has reached my system
and poisons me.....
~slowly.....~
I find his features in an artist:
A smile that kills.....
and eyes that melt;
~a patient angel.....~
It was all my fault
and now.....
it's too late for me to cry.....
I want to see him once again
~and embrace him.....~
-what was written is true....and it hurts.....I need a hug~LOL, don't mind me.....*wipes tears, trying to smile~fails with flying colors*
I choke underneath these tears
waiting for a reply.....
where are you?
How much do I have stand
this darkness?
Why do you play with my emotions
with such nonchallance?
I am mute for years.....
Screamed too much,
in vain.....
If you think I will wait for you
double check your past
dear cheater
and you shall have a surprise.....
My strings that tied me to your hands
~burned in the inferno~
I am free to fall off the roof
~under which only the walls heard my cries for help~
I am different now.....
This will be said only once:
You've read me wrong.....
and now.....
YOU pay.....
~My sins were washed away by rain and tears
and nothing else will change my path.....
-towards the lights I am heading
never knowing what will happen next-
.....I go by hazard now.....
YOU?!~
