So i wander onto this empty stage
the lights swaying from ten directions
makes me a puppet on tight strings
unaware of what is next~
cannot hear, nor cannot see
your face, your gaze above me
screams and silence in me scatter
and i collapse so amused~
a child's play,
simplified this amount of hurt
to manipulation and repressive grief
of those i never knew yet held onto me
[the ones calling me their 'love']
lost me by accident
when they tripped over and threw my soul away
ignorants from the grotesque cries
their faces are shapeless masks
lacking expression and betraying
[lack of humanity]
hear me out
i gaze back at you
i face you stronger
you might not know what my caress hides
[only nights i could not feel
the crimson star fading away---and your sense along with it]
