a beautiful white ash falls
in the shape of snow
somewhere a dim light decreases and pain grows.....
it burns so much, it stings the eyes, mind and heart
[the nothingness out the window bathed in the mental storm]
i have no life to turn to as i cry, not a soul to cherish
the sky tares the night open
no love survived my outburst.....as it ran away.....
iron threads descend, a corset wraps itself around my ribs,
every cold fiber twists, in a bizarre pattern,
grasping living tissue, pulsing agony.....
[the mind's own mind screams madness
and the grip emaciates the reason]
forgive my kindness, forgive my sacrifice for you
unworthy as i stand,
i feel your betrayal in your final words
.....my world shut down.....
it is limited by my selfish wish, the urge to let you go
because to you i gave it all
and my words froze in my throat.....
wasn't my soul enough to substitute words.....[?]
or human nature tricked us both?
****
a beautiful white ash falls
in the shape of snow
somewhere a dim light decreases and pain grows.....
another day of wandering is weaving.....
[the compass no longer shows North]
