I am.... mildly irritated to say the least of things. As many of you know, I spend a lot of time reading and writing. It is something that I plan to do in a future career of sorts, so as one could say, I am very attached to it. Anyways, on a different internet site, I experienced a strange phenomenon known as flaming. The basis of which includes internally picking at someone's writing, calling names, finding grammatical errors in something that is meant to be a timed writing to begin with, and having nothing good to say about the writing at all.
Now I must admit, I was ready to retaliate at this comment and use the usual 'Go away before I promptly shove a pole down your skinny little neck'. However, what I realized dumbfounded me even more. The several grammatical errors that I was being harassed over so violently were not actually errors at all but rather subject to area. You see, British text and American text have a quiet dispute over quotations. With British text, one uses ' ' with only one ' on each side and then if there is a quote or something within the two there are " " added. However, with American text, the truth is purely the opposite in which one quotes with " " and if there is a quote within this ' '. These two different styles of grammar are both accepted in writing. Neither is considered better than the other. They simply exist as two styles. This quietly irritated me to no particular end.
Once more, I took a step back and tried to relax and meditate the irritation at receiving such abuse. However, once I managed to regain myself and find peace with the idea that this person obviously has no other will than to simply harm someone's personality and creativity, I came back and found more comments left issuing the same sort of flaming context with absolutely no recourse or apologies. I decided to delete all the comments and simply ignore those that had said such things. However, a little less than an hour later, I was flooded with them once more. They were extremely harsh, much harsher than the previous ones and even picked at my personality and my ability to write in general. Such words included 'you suck' and 'you should never write again' and such and such.
To be perfectly blunt, I was in a state of shock.I decided to alert an admin to these series of spams and flames, and what unnerved me even more was the fact that I received a PM back from the admin stating that most of the comments were legitimate comments in her books. Now I must confess that I sent a very emotion driven PM back to the admin expressing my desire for her to do something at least on the context of fixing it to where said people would quietly leave my writing alone. However, the admin simply sent back a very crude version of a hate letter.
Now I must tell you, I am rarely judgmental of people and honestly try and find the better of things when I can, but at that point in time, I had a complete and utter melt down dragging to some lengthily extent in which I called a friend and ranted to her about how much I deeply despised said site that shall remain nameless for their sake. After said rant, I was able to calm down a fraction, drink some tea, and get back to at least somewhat of an acceptable appearance. What was done is done say someone great, no? Anyways, for my own health, I decided to delete my account on said site and removed all of my writing along with it. I must say I am still a fraction irritated but more deeply ashamed of what some humans are driven to now a days. It truly saddens me that people cannot find something more productive in life than to pick another person's joy apart.
Anyways, if I do not write for the next few days on any posts, please do not hate me for it. I am trying to bandage wounds in my pride as well as my heart, and I am finding it extremely difficult due to the nature of the flaming. I simply decided to write this up in order to explain myself to those that I RP with. Thank you for reading.
Sincerely yours,
Kratos Cruxis
//: Edit: I have been meditating for the last four or five hours and am slowly recovering mentally. I may resume meditation tomorrow morning.
//: Edit2: I woke up this morning feeling much better. I decided what's done is done. I won't stoop to someone's immaturity level by letting that drama work me anymore. I've found, though, that I have a weird case of writer's block now =/. I'm going to try and get over it quickly least I go crazy, lol.
//: Edit3: X3 OMG I'm so happy. I got inspired to write again XD I went swimming for like 4 hours o_O not sure if that is why or not... xD Anyways, somehow my mind just went 'ok done sulking and stuff time to get back to work' and suddenly I was hit with all this inspiration. I'm so thankful. Also, the neighbor's dog needs to shut up ._. I need sleep.
