Hi guys, long time no see right? I'm really sorry for that, it's been really different lately. On a relationship stand point everything is beautiful and warm. The Christmas holiday as you know isn't a great time for me although, this year I finally felt up to buying my grandma's favorite gingerbread cookies for the first time since her passing and my grandfather's passing. I'm still not completely over what happened and to be honest, I probably never will be.

I did reconnect with my grandmother on my father's side recently. I'm really grateful for that. I dont really have many people on my side of the family anymore that I can talk to. She asked me exactly why I didn't speak with my parents anymore and I unloaded a lot of bottled up feelings and memories I thought I had put behind me. It's funny how that can happen without us meaning for it to.

There were a fat rare good times I can remember with my parents but, that doesn't make up for everything else they've said and done. Maybe I'm being childish...I don't know. Hell maybe it was childish to try to patch things up with them after everything that's happened. Idk...

I'm also back to school now and I'm glad to be back. Even if I'm sick right out of the blue today. Threw up for no reason and without warning =/ like, where did it come from? I felt fantastic a split second before. I'm physically tired because we have plumbing issues again...which I find extremely irritating but, life is life and I now have a bag of lemons. Jokes on life though, I freaking love lemons lol dumb update post is dumb.

Usagi