Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it? Well, since my semi dream and now, a LOT of weird things have happened. Now, the real story:
At lunch one day, after my semi dream, Nina said I had a baby of Fat Friend's. Now, being the nice person I am, I laughed it off. Until the next day, during the Pledge of Allegiance.
Ashley Decker, the oh-so-wonderful Ashley Decker, asks me why my iPod is always sticking out of my pocket. So I say,
"It's my baby."
Then, all of a sudden, during the moment of silence, you hear:
"SO YOU ADMIT IT?!" Thanks a lot, Michael.
So Nina and I created a background for my lovely iPod. Its name is Ripjaw Respect Colona-Johnson, and it looks like me. :D Here's Nina's story.
It all started at an end-of-the-year football party at a nearby house. Who knew a courteous "hello" could turn into something wonderful. He asked me to our last school function of the year, the tenth grade formal.
I don't think anyone expected us to show up together. I was wearing a sunny yellow dress that had a fairy-ish appeal to it. I wore my Converse because there was no way I was wearing heels. My hair was flared up behind. It was pretty different, but I think it fits me well. Ricky was wearing a yellow shirt and black dress pants with a pink tie covered in small sports-team logos. My mom took pictures and off we were.
The formal went very well, I guess, except all our friends were surprised. Everyone thinks of Ricky as a huge jerk but once you start talking to him, you really see how great he is. At the end of the dance, he walked me home. The dance was at the elementary school, which was right up the street from my house, and when we reached the doorstep he kissed me on the cheek and asked me to be his girlfriend. I blushed, and no words came to my head. I just nodded.
Our realtionship was very successful. We didn't just have a physical relationship, but we had something on a mental/intellectual level, too. We never pressured each other to do something we didn't want to do. Those summer days were wonderful... I would walk up to the school around ten in the morning, and meet him there. We would spend the whole day doing all sorts of stuff, like bike riding in Jacobsburg Park, going to an Iron Pigs baseball game, and even going shopping together! Although, the last day of summer, we decided to take it a step further.
Nothing changed in our relationship after that. If anything, it became stronger. Until, of course, that horrid day when I missed my period. I didn't tell him. I didn't want him to worry. Secretly, I bought a pregnancy test, just in case. It never came.
That day, I told Ricky I wasn't feeling well, so I couldn't walk up to meet him. He wanted to come down to my house, but I told him I didn;t want to catch my cold either. The results showed positive. I cried all that day. I considered abortion but I decided against it. It was a piece of Ricky, my sweet, loving, Ricky. Again, I spent a lot of time crying after that decision. Then, I came up with what seems like a stupid plan, looking back at it: Break up with Ricky, so I don't ruin his successful life. Figuring out how to do it was much easier than actually doing it. What would he do when he sees me with a baby? What will he think? All those questions popped in my head and I could not answer them. Maybe I will just... give the baby up for adoption, I'm only sixteen, right? I can't raise a baby yet. I couldn't take it anymore, so I called up Nina, one of my best friends I could ever have.
Once I got Nina, who is currently dating Nick, up to speed, she was very surprised, but she loves babies, so she was very excited to help. Nina said I shouldn't break up with Ricky, her idea was that he would be surprised but would not be unsupportive. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I did that.
Friday was the day I decided I would break up with Ricky. I needed a last day for closure reasons, wishing he would remember that last great day. Getting ready for that was very somber. Instead of wearing my usual bright colours, I wore darker colours, like a brown sweater with darker jeans rather than my sometimes neon ones. When he saw me, he noticed it. You could see it in his eyes immediately.
[Editor's note: I cried when I read this.]
I started bawling, nd he hugged me tight and told me everything would be okay.
"No," I replied. I said that we had to break up because I didn't want to ruin his life. I felt so guilty, I told him he would understand eventually and that I still loved him, very much. I kissed him and squeezed him tight before walking away with wet eyes.
The rest of that day I spent with Nina, mostly crying into her shoulder, but also discussing how I would tell my parents or take pre-natal pills. I could think as far to when the baby was born. We decided to schedule an appointment to get me checked out without my parents knowing. We could tell them about the baby when I started to show. Thinking of that baby reminded me of Ricky's face and I burst into tears.
Some may say that the doctor's appointment went well, but I was nervous as hell. Nona came in with me, she was like a security blanket. The doctor started asking me questions like, "When did you figure this out?" I told her the beginning of the week. The next question was "Do your parents know?" I shook my head and begged her not to tell them yet,i would tell them in due time, when I was ready. The doctor gave me very good information and a prescription for pre-natal pills that would be disguised as a prescription for an infected wound. Dr. Pantech showed me everything I could possibly need to know about filling the prescription and how to treat some of the symptoms.
That's the end until Nina writes more. It may be different next time you check up, she's editting almost the whole story. I editted it where it needed it. I'm the editor, by the way. ^^
I love the end of the first big paragraph about the dance... ^///^ It made me blush. :D And I did cry when she (I) broke up with Ricky. ;_; Imma wimp. :P
FAILURE!
Well, I'll be back with the editted story/future chapters. :D
