SO I know I rant about my loneliness but I couldn't take it today at lunch so I kinda broke down crying. A sort of friend of mine picked me up a bit and then other gathered around me like I was an art gallery lol. My friend was actually taking pictures of people during lunch and she happened to be taking one of me and discovered me Crying. I feel uncomfortable at lunch because I have no one to sit with, I haven't felt like I've had anyone to sit with for my whole high school life. SO I didn't go to my next class instead I was in guidance talking to a counselor about my problem if that's what you'd like to call it. Gosh I hate crying in front of people. But I'll try and find new friends, like the girl who was taking a picture of me we are alike I should be her friend. I should. I should repair those band friendships too because those lazy "friends" of mine won't do it. I have to talk to them or be miserable. NO MORE Depressing posts from me. I hate writing a depressing post on here or on my personal blog everday! I hate having to do that. I won't do it anymore. Promise. No more crying for myself either.