Has anyone every read the secret life of bees? One of the characters in the book May has a problem because she feels like she carries the whole world on her shoulders. If she hears bad news it's like the news is happening to her she feels so bad about it.

Sometimes I can relate to her. I don't like reading books or watching some movies sometimes because I get so into it that I feel like I'm the one that got raped, or died, or is suicidal, or is a crack head, or has a broken house hold. I get so into character it's depressing. Ah I wonder why that is. I mention that because I'm watching thirteen right now, it's one of my favorite movies but it does really get to me sometimes. I'm not going to stop watching it or reading stuff like this. It just makes me realize the reality of the world, and whats really outside my room. I'm pretty sheltered I don't have experience but I know far more than I should. But I do get jealous of it at times, I would never participate but it would be nice to know that I had that as an option. But I don't. Whats my option? I'm not sure, stupidity would be the answer.

Four day weekend.
I've found another band I like. Clinic pretty old but I love the sounds they use I love music like that it makes me feel alive...and Like I'm feeling nature or something.
I have being so philosophical all the time. I hate being in such a bleh mood.
Time to go kill doods on call of duty.