My parents just made me feel really loved this morning at 2:00 T_T. I was awake and couldn't sleep (insomnia...) and the phone rang. I didn't know who would be calling at the time, but I thought Grandma might've been having trouble with her car again so I picked up the phone. Turns out it was a guy from work just wanting dad to tell him how to turn a machine on, so I gave it to dad.

Then my mom comes into my room yelling at me for answering the phone for no reason. Then she tells me to turn the TV off (I turned it on to get to the phone and see in the dark) and go to sleep. So I turned off the TV and my dad comes into the room and he's mad at me. So he throws my phone at me (And I mean LITERALLY threw), telling me to put that "worthless piece of shit up my fucking self"

God... I'm so sick and tired of trying to help my parents out. I mean, even if I help them out, they just yell at me for nothing. Or yell at each other and then take it out on me and my brother T_T. I just wish I was somewhere else during those fights... *sighs* I really don't know why I try and make my parents happy anymore...

They kinda just expect me to act like a perfect daughter, the one who wears dresses, always listens, and always kisses butt. When I'm apparently the spoiled tomboy who likes to do whatever the fuck she wants T_T which is all bullshit. Since I listen to them, get good grades in school, push myself in school even though I don't even want to, I put up with all of their shit whenever they fight, and I become their fucking punching bag when I could just walk into the next room.

I don't care if they think I'm the worst child in the fucking world. I'm doing half of the shit I'm doing just for them because they say so, but I'm not going to become a girly-girl when that just ain't me anymore. I mean, I used to wear dresses when I was 5 and younger, but now I like just pants and t-shirts. They just expect me to wear make-up and act like a weak, helpless flower, when in reality, I hate make-up and I can kick most guy's asses if I wanted to.

I'm just trying to get my feelings out since I hate the fact they flip out on me for pretty much nothing at all T_T. And I feel a bit better after typing all of this out ^^