That I'm really lacking the will and iniciative to do anything lately? I don't know why but I'm procrastinating more than usual :/ I suppose it's just because of Christmas coming around... and waiting... and some boredom too... I dunno... today I just woke up and don't really feel in the happy Christmas mood...

In fact, I feel quite lonely and abandoned for some reason I don't know... :/ *sighs* I also wrapped a total of: 1 present out of 5 that I was supposed to wrap about... a week ago... I guess I'm just pretty lazy and feeling apathetic this year :/

Well, this year really hasn't been the best for our family... My pawpaw (the only grandpa I have living) is going to die soon... Family's growing more and more apart... The younger kids are getting brattier... and just a whole bunch of stuff... but all of that isn't why I'm upset... and I really don't know what's up with me...

I really was fine last night... but today... I don't know... :/ I think I'm just weird or something...