*Sigh* Hello. I'm sad. *sigh* I really miss my Girlfriend. She's so busy all the time. Plus Christmas is right around the corner and I have yet to decide if I wanna go through with something! **No, Chad, not sex (exactly).

You see, I have this idea. I was looking through my jewelry box and I found this ring I got one year for my Birthday one year and it's really nice. And special. And I want to give it to BR for Christmas. As like a "I really love you" sort of thing, but.... I'm afraid of her reaction. I mean what will she think of it? Will she think if it as sweet? Or will she think it's just too much and she's just gotten too far with this and break up with me? Or maybe she'll just think I'm trying to purpose to her. I mean... I'm not, I just want to show her that I'm really in love with her. Oh man... I'm so confused here. And I mean if I decide on giving her the ring, then I want to do it myself, not just give it to Integra to give to her. Ya know what I mean? It's special, so I wanna give it to her myself. *Sigh* Man this is a conundrum. Do I give her the ring or do I not? DAMN! This is really hard.

Well That's about it. Just My random rants. That sort of stuff... Heehee. Sorry, I suppose.

~Demon~

**If Chad is reading this. ^^