Hello. This is not the girl that typed in that weird domain name. This is the deud that spends WAY to much time here (not that i mind) and is trying to teach her how to use this confusing and demented site.

~so yeah~

censorship sucks.

so.
ive been working on my mural for mural painting for a few MONTHS now.
its inspired by Frida Kahlo (dont know who she is? look her up, shes amazing)
anddddd the first part of the project is starting it on canvas board so 1. you know what your doing, and 2. so it can be aproved (or not in case its obscene or bad or etc.)
and theyre aproved by the art director, unless the teachers unsure about it (thinks its questionable), in which case she asks the principal.

my mural (being inspired by Frida Kahlo) shows a wound on the arm that shows bone. (its not that graphic at all to be honest) and because of that...it was deemed questionable and i had to ask the principal for aproval.
annnnnnnd
i cant put the mural on the wall
they said my mural will make people want to cut themselves...
but it wont...because the kind of thing that might trigger someone to cut would be say...thin red lines...exposed bone that shows a very unrealistic portrayel of a wound...nope.
anywho
im gonna fight it.
this is b.s.
im going to point out EVERY questionable mural out there
heres my thoughts
1. coffe murals
theres at least 2 murals that show coffee, coffee has cafine and cafine is a drug. therefore those murals are glorifying/encouraging drug use amongst students.
2. playing cards mural
theres a mural of a person playing cards
playing cards is gambling, gamblings an addiction
therefore, that mural may trigger someone whos an addict to gamble.
3. Spray paint cans
the mural of the cans of spraypaint could inspire some students to graffiti
4. Ballerinas
theres a couple of murals with dancers in them, dancers sometimes starve themselves or go bulimic to acheive perfect bodys, and that might make girls feel inadequate and develope an eating disorder from constantly seeing the 'perfect' bodys of the dancers on the wall.
5. knife with blood
nuff said.
but theyre apparently taking this down alredy...but a friend of mine did that one a few years back, so im gonna tell him about that, see what he says...
6. gun weilding ninjas
um...violent much? this could inspire another columbine...but with cool ninja costumes..
7.alcohol
there is at least one mural that depicts what looks like a whine bottle.
if my painting gonna make people cut
than you can bet that murals gonna make them drink.

this isnt a "if im going down im gonna take everyone with me" kind of deal
its more...pointing out absurdity.
i know people cut
i know its a problem
but my mural
isnt gonna change that in a positive or negative way.

Bah humbug

>.>
um
so my mom accepted our neighbors offer for our family to go over their housse for thanksgiving...um.
0.0
bad...veryvery bad.
...i dont cant eat infront of people...its just...i cant.
ive gotten to a point were i can eat infront of certain people...when NESSASARY
but...nope
not happening.
and i told my mom i dont wanna go
and shes alll...overdramatic and
blablahblah ill cancel
and im like no, you guys go...ill just hang around here...no big deal... (im a vegetarian, big turkey dinner=not as appealing as youd think)
>.>
and i go up to my room...and later on my mom and dad are talking and hes all like rawr she already said shed go, she cant change her mind- which is actually a very good argument except...ya know...
I NEVER SAID YES IN THE FIRST PLACE >:o

i cant actually tell my parents i dont like eating infront of ppl cuz its a very complicated thing...and people talking about me eating is just as uncomfertable as having to eat infront of someone...its a lose/lose situation

gah...i just dont wanna be blamed for another ruined holiday.... shboiBHGVCKUBSVUCSDBVYVSCIYBGSDUJK,
sigh <.<

Kurt Vonneguts B-day

So today is Veterans day
wich used to be Armistice Day
but to me today is Kurt Vonneguts birthday
but i didnt get to make a big deal out of it
didnt even get to make a cake or read one of his books ive been meaning to read.
but um. i did clean my room...a little...>.>
anywho.pointbeing.Kurt Vonnegut died 4/11/06 and i think in addition to all of the veterans that should be remembered...he should too. ^.^

OBAMA 297

OBAMA JUST WON
IM LOOKING AT THE TV
HE GOT 297 ELECTORAL VOTES
AND OMG
CHANGE
NO MORE OF THE SAME OL B.S.
AAAAAAAHHHHHHH
YAY
^.^

i hate how theyre making it a race thing though
"yay a black guy won!"

NO
AN INTELLEGENT QUALLIFIED MAN WHO WILL BRING CHANGE has won
^.^
I <3 Obama

um...rant

so i is ranting (i enjoy gramatical errors for humorous purpose :D)

and um
so
my parents are going away tommorrow
andmy mother says
i have to take care of the dogs
which is strange b.c. my brothers home almost 24/7 so why wouldnt they ask him to do it (granted a futile thing to do but at least somewhat respectfull to my busy schedule.) and she says
well actually only friday
and so im like
oh good so i dont have to worry about that any day but friday
cool
and shes like
and maybe the weekends.
and i was like
wait
what if i wanna sleep over a friends house?
and she was like
no sleeping over
and i asked why?
and she said
because of the car
o.0 the car? whats gonna happen with the car? am i gonna eat it if i sleep over at a friends? why cant i sleep over?
and my mom says to my dad
can there be sleepovers
and he says
i think you just said no
and i asked why not
and she responded with the same answer...she's very "tired" right now and when shes "tired" she doesnt make any sence so this is getting quite frustraiting
and i really want a solid answer. so i continue to ask
my dad starts yelling about me raising my voice (which i wasnt) and being dissrespectfull (which my mom WAS being and i wasnt)
and so she finally explains that my neghbors will be watching for my car (wow, great trust their mom and dad) so i ask...well...what if i tell the neighbors im sleeping over a friends house?
and she says yes
and my dad says something about consistency
and i say thats what im saying...
and than he says
no sleeping over on school nights
which is a null point considering
WE WERE TALKING ABOUT THE FRIGGIN WEEKEND
and i point this out
and he gets mad
i try to explain myself
he gets madder
and now im writing out of pure and complete frustration.