the world is full of many different kinds of peoples and many different kinds of life. in all this mixed up lives chaos reigns as the major factor. this is my own interpretations of it, and hope you like it. If not, let me know why because i am a rather curious fellow and will try to think differently to see why :P

disturbed brain

the pulse is coming again
whether i try to stop it or not
it will keep coming to me
each time i hold my thoughts
trying to stop the trend
it just won't stop alone
slowly it gets faster
then it starts throbbing
the panic sets in eventually
then the look of crase is there
not my fault, it isn't
but when you are not right
no matter the plight day or night
my heart may be trying
but my mind is not there
balance turned to chaos
chaos turns to strife
strength may come eventually
but the day right here pain
if only the body would hold my strain
of one messed up little brain
that will never be truly sane.
am i the one to blame?
then it's all my shame

thoughts of this day

memories from long ago
keep creeping in my head
of times both good and bad
it's wonderful yet sad
for each time i look here
my mind travels to this year
the things i've done and seen
of the wonders I've found interesting
All wonderful to me
a spark found true
a world once dark and blue
changing slowly before my eyes
this all happened slowly
yet i wouldn't deny this view
for to deny would be untrue
My life is drifting again
where this path leads me is unknown
but hope rings true this morn :P

Birthday bash

There was a time when i was lost
seeking the light i lost long ago
but while drifting around in this abyss
i found a faint glow that i didn't see
it came from a source unknown
but bit by bit it came into focus
each day growing slowly but steadily
then before i knew it
there was a brightly lit world
looking back at me while i see it
the world isn't a what you would think
but she is what my world became
not the land nor the sky
just this simple girl's smile
a hand held or two
it is a special bliss
just to feel her kiss
if only this would come to be
so for the light i see out there
come to me ^^

Lessons of the alone

a time so long we were parted
it felt so cold and dreary when parted
but it was something she wanted
I need some space, so let me be
her wish was granted and she left
days went by, then weeks as well
but she grew to see the truth
she didn't want to be gone from others
she just wanted to be gone from her worry
from the stress that builds deep within
she wouldn't be able to be rid of it by herself
friends and family are ones that would help
each one picking a piece up and holding it up
cleaning up the cluttered mind she had
so one by one the stress was gathered
then tossed out of her life with glee
to this day the lesson was learned
she still is set free :P

the eyes of gods

When looking at this world through the eyes of a god
you see the possibilities that would arise and reign
the endless reasons that one small man
may become the epic changes of the universe
so many chances of a man as you or me
becoming that which may one day rule as One
A god or goddess with superior wit and power

or you could see that which you created become dark
the rivers of man and beasts hearts fall to their nature
they corrupt the very exsistence that they sprang from
taking your very heart so once full of hope and light
and smashing it into the smallest pieces of your bleak life

to be see from the eyes of a god is a touch and go life
for so many different variances would tip the scales
all you would be able to do is hope that you win out
you hold true to the very reason you started your worlds
so that no matter what you try, it at least comes to be you