Cursed mind

The memories are coming again
The nights of nightmares I had
the horror of the chaos i was
the insanity of my very life
being relived again right now.
The hatred i felt for life.
the anger i had at death,
The helplessness of no control.
And the despair of not being taken.
all of it comes back to me.
all the dark nights staring down.
blade sharpened, but never cutting.
not due to lack of courage,
but lack of self worth.
No one wanted me.
No one would miss me.
I was dead inside.
DAMN DEATH, why he have to go.
You knew it would destroy me.
But even still. i lived.
All those emotions stormed.
And i lived those nights.
My heart a distorted chaos.
Those memories still live,
but to keep my sanity.
I have them buried deep.
So i will not lose my self.
So i stay me.
Despite all my pain

End