why is it that i can't stop,
what is it that makes me this way
i try to keep my emotions at bay
that way while i live and breath
my inner demons won't come out to play
but in this challenge i seems i lapse
for each day i let a bit come out
a glimpse of that which stays awake
always waiting for my guard to slip
each glimpse brings out a bit more
until i stand here torn
with nothing else to bare
my mind would be exposed
a dark twisted maze of ideas
a light hopeful world of possibilities
both fight for dominance within
it is what i try to keep at bay
but even if part of me wishes to stay hidden
the other part thrives on this chaos
i just wish i knew which side i truly wanted
chaos or balance, happiness,
or to tear it all down.
why can't i stop?