This is my release, one that I do need to express to feel better.
For one month was all I had you for, but it was enough. I learned about love, I learned about long distance relationships, I've learned about myself. And for this past month, I thank you.
To love someone is giving one person the ability to break you but trusting them not to.
I've learned that love is a give and take relationship. To keep peace between each other, one must give some to earn some. Give some love, receive some love. Give some space, get some space. I've also realised a lot of trust is involved, also. One must trust that their other means it when they say they love you, even though it will seem far from it.
I've learned that long distance relationships are the hardest of them all, especially if you've never met your significant other in person. Someone once told me this:
"To a certain extent, you don't know the person."
Which, in all actuality, is very true. You don't know how they act in real life situations, or how they act around others. But with that aside, sometimes the best of one's personality comes out online. About long distance, I've learned three key elements: trust, communication, and affection, in that order. In order for communication, there must be trust. In order for affection, there must be the other two. Long distance will test one's will to stay faithful and will to risk it all.
And about myself, I've learned so very much. I've learned that I start liking people too easily and fall too hard for people. The feeling of being loved, missed, and needed was probably one of the most phenomenal feelings of my life. I Have learned that breaking up with your significant other is not the end of the universe, but it is the end of one world and the beginning of a new. I've realised that I am too clingy, and the fact that I didn't and couldn't let go was because I got too attached right away. That needs to change. I've learned that I still manage to care and love after being hurt, but not necessarily in the same way as before. And the most important thing that I've learned? Love someone with as much as you can, but remember that things can always change.
So, if you are still reading this, you must be wondering, "Well, what's the point?"
Well, this is actually a thank you.
Thank you for showing me love.
Thank you for showing me what it's like to really feel cared for.
Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for making me stronger.
Thank you for making the only decent relationship I've ever had memorable.
Thank you, for everything.
Djayy.
