You are the beating in my heart!

I'm sorry I haven't been updating much. I'm quite busy.
On Saturday, I went to the NCAA and with my marching band, performed our show there for everyone who was at Hoop City. Then I stayed after with seven other people, making eight, and we just had a good time for another hour. My friend Clint, he got some roasted almonds, and on the bus home, I said, "GIVE ME SOME NUTS!" And I didn't realize what I said until like ten minute later. I fail.

Sunday could've been better. They took my cousin's grandma off hospice (which means they took her off everything that was keeping her alive before) on Saturday, and doctors said she had at least one week to live before she died, and she died the next day. Seriously. That's terrible. ): Other than that, I get to sing in my church on Friday. Oh boy. I'm terrified.

I got married to this kid I like on Facebook. His name is Eli. Yeah, He knows I like him. I don't care. But he confuses me still with his "I can honestly say I don't like you but if I wasn't dating Hannah I'd be dating you," thing. Even after Kitt explained it to me. I'm still so mother BEEPING confused. D= And it gets awkward talking to him sometimes. Frack. And when he was on camera on Saturday, his hair was... funny. I'm not used to seeing him with his hair not straight. Plus him shirtless. XD I was like WHOA. *Too young*

My friend Alissa had a dream about him, because I was talking to her about him.

Alissa: I had a dream about you and eli last night. you went to arkansas because i went there first, and i saw eli, and I was like "YOU CONFUSE ME" and then he started speaking some stuff in gibberish to me. then you came out of no where and slapped eli and called him an asshole, and eli said "but i broke up with hannah!" and then you two got married,
DJayy: DUDE WE JUST GOT MARRIED LAST NIGHT!
Alissa: O.o... and i went back to michigan--
Djayy: Wait, where was i? I didn't go back with you?
Alissa: No, you were still on your honeymoon with eli!
Djayy: WAIT, WHAT!? I CAN'T IMAGINE THAT!
Alissa: ---- and everyone there was speaking gibberish too!

Rofl. Yeah. Weirdness.

I'm starting to hate the fact that I'm finding one sided friendships with people whom I thought I could trust. They're allowed to rant to me, but when I try to vent to them, I can't do anything. And they don't help. And I see them in school everyday helping other people with their problems. Seriously, what about me? ):

This was quite long. I apologize.
Loves.<3

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