At this moment I'm not in the best mood right now..I'm angry, frustrated and seriously annoyed..To make everything worse is that my older brother is friends with a guy I seriously don't like...Last year he stole my dad's stuff And I have no time for thieves..He is a thieve and a backstaber..i don't know what is wrong with my bro becuase I can't believe he believes his lies...I tried to talk to him but as usual no one listens to me.."Its like what do you know" I try to explain but I always ends up on the losing streak... The word "excuse" is one word I don't want to hear..I try to help him but yeah it goes in thru the one ear and out by the other...I always ask myslef why do i try so hard to make peace and making people see that not everything i say is bullshit or an excuse...I seriously don't know why but people tend to push all my wrong buttons...I'm just human i can get pissed off too..But when I do lose my temper I'm like the freaking antichrist...They say things to me like.."You don't know anything, Stop pushing, You're making excuses again, etc etc

I always try my utter best to be the best person I can be..I am a very good person most of the time but i can also be very rude at times...Sometimes when i wake up in the morning I look in the mirror and asks myself "Is this the person everyone sees? or do the see someone different?" Sometimes I wish I could just crawl into a hole and stay there forever becuase people close to me like my bro just don't give a shit what i have to say or my oppinion in the matter....

Sometimes I think to myself..Am I really that good of a person I tend to say i am or Am I a low life that no one listens to and kicks me a side like I'm some piece of trush...