How is everyone doing today? Well, I hope. I’m excited because the herbs I planted in a little pot are growing! It’s exciting for me because I’ve never planted anything in my life and to see them actually sprouting and growing makes me excited. So lame, I know but gotta appreciate the wonders of nature now and again.

So, on a semi-serious note I went to the doctor on Wednesday to talk to her about my moodiness, aggravation, getting pissed off for no particular reason, being sleepy all the time even when I sleep almost 10-11 hours a night, not wanting to do the things I love to do, losing weight, and well, constantly feeling guilty whenever I was actually happy. Whelp, I’m depressed! Duh, should have figured that one out. My doc couldn’t believe I waited so long to come and see her about this because I’ve been feeling like for almost a year and had to get passed my stubbornness to finally go and do something about it since all the things I tried to do myself, would work maybe for a few days and then I’d sink right back down. Oh, I hid it well, obviously but it’s becoming harder and harder for me to mask it and I’m just plain tired of not feeling like me.

My doc put me on anti-depressants and I must have misunderstood her because she told me the symptoms I would most likely be feeling while I adapted to the medication would settle in about a week. Ney, what I didn’t understand is that it would take about a week before the symptoms would stop. It’s literally changing around the chemicals in my brain and one of the side effects is muscle cramping and I just figured just a little cramp here and there but oh. My. GOD was I wrong. It literally felt like my muscles were contracting to the point that they wanted to bust through my skin. My mind was going a mile a minute and I just couldn’t hold still, I was literally just doing circles around my apartment, murmuring to myself, ‘it’s just the meds, it’s just the meds, it’s just the meds.’ Thank goodness my doc prescribed some mad hard-core pain killers/muscle relaxers that calmed me down after I took it. I still feel like my neck is tighter than all ghetto but I can deal with that…and my hands are shaky too but I can deal with that as well. lol! But I do feel better…in the head anyway.*snicker*

Anyhoo, I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and weekend and for those lucky souls that actually have Sunday off, enjoy your Easter.