Have you ever had a dream
That you thought was real
And it wasn’t
And what you thought wasn’t
Real was
What would you do if something
Wasn’t true and it wasn’t
And what you thought was true was
But then…
I woke up one morning found out I was me
Fell asleep and life was just another dream
In that dream I saw you but were you really there
I tried to touch your face but you just disappeared
Trying to embrace the fact that you are really gone
But only wanting to embrace the body of the one I love
When I look beside me there’s no one to see
Being nowhere confused only about me
But realizing you were the one to set my life
When you were here I understood the reason why
I woke up every morning to realize you were my life
You took away my life when you tried to break my soul
Only pleased with the thoughts that you were by my side
Happy and excited what being with you would bring
But I woke up and life was just another dream
Looking at your photo really mad me see
That it was all my fault and it was only me
Blaming myself for all that I had done
Only to realize it was life itself
Urging for something more to touch and see
Wanting the kiss I never actually received
Back to the beginning to only see
That life is no life when it’s only me
I’m happy that there’s someone who will cry for me
Just a glare means the world
The slightest touch gives me chills
The sight of your face sets my life
Passionate, sensitive, smart describes you
Not understandable is in side you
But why are you not
Can anyone understand us
I don’t understand you
I feel I do a little
But
I want to understand you
Completely
What’s in this mind you have
Why can’t you cry, feel pain
Tell me
How do you feel about this world
Or the world which it could be just you me
He’s gone now
You so seem happy
I like you even more, I think
Cause now you laugh
You seem to smile a lot more too
When we talk it use to be so dead
But now you have so much to say
Tell me
How come after this tragedy
You can be so happy
Filled with so much joy
But are humans just selfish
For there desires
To want and only think of there selves as they are born
To want food, shelter and a warm body to hold them close
But what does any one know about life
Are we all not suffering at time
Are we all not in pain
You must remember all that you can
Embrace this happiness with all you strength
For this memory will keep you going
It will keep you alive
And happy about tomorrow
So don’t ever give forget
Or you will lose you strength and spirit
Hang on a little longer
Stay strong a little longer
For when it’s over you won’t have to try
You won’t have to worry anymore
And you can fall right into that person’s arms
Then you can rejuvenate
No more not being for sure
No more not knowing what to do
Or what will happen next
Love is a curse yet a wonderful gift
The time you spent
The memories that kept you excited about tomorrow
It’s gone but…
You say you wish he was never there
That you hadn’t met him that day
That when he spoke or sang you didn’t fall in love with his voice
But thus when you frustrated you did want to run into his arms
When he made you made you couldn’t help but to forgive him
That when you made him smile or laugh
You felt as though this feeling could never stop
That it would always last forever
But was I a fool, an idiot
To think life could just turn bright all of a sudden
To think of him ever day wishing if only I could…
Knowing of course it will one day all end
Hiding it because only knowing that he was there made me smile
That he was by my side and I was by his
He was different from other boys never bragging of money or girls
Bad intentions never crossed his mind for it was anime and manga that was his life
He would make up stories that would make me cry
Of romantic teens just like our life
We talked of nothing here and there
Then tragedy hit and his dad disappeared
Traveling to another world in just mid air
Hearing this news I could only stare and wonder what was really there
You are my sanctuary the person I go to for refuge and shelter
The heart cannot truly express it’s love for a person
Are words not enough
Giving a person a gift is this really love
Can only a ring represent your love for a person
Why is it that many humans fall in love with an item and not this person
Will money always be there to catch you when you fall
Will it comfort you on nights when you are afraid
Why can you not love a person for being there
For making you laugh when you down
But what do humans know
We only know what we hear
What we’ve learned
And understand
But as complicated as life is we understand that we must live
Being happy but not knowing why
Smiling but having no reason
Thinking but having no thought
Crying but having no pain
Anger but toward who and what
Wanting to live but for what reason
Wanting to die but the cause
To love but to not be loved
To talk but to not be heard
Knowing but understanding you have yet to learn
Feeling but body and mind are numb
Suffering as others are happy
But realizing there others like you
Realizing it's not your fault
That you can just blame it on others
That when the time comes you can run away
Being looked at different but not knowing why
Now understanding this pain deep inside
Now having the courage to say it aloud
But still frightened you shield yourself away from the crowd
This corner all alone in the shadows of many
But still urging for people to know the real you
But afraid there stupidity will turn into anger and fear
You go far away and just disappear
I only cry tears of happiness
Pain is the only way I keep moving
It keeps me breathing and alive
I refuse to hate because love will do a better job