I hate it when you smile at me
The final thought that could never be
Your voice is a sacred melody that sings out to me
I whisper “I love you” just like this
And embrace your entire being for a passionate kiss
To touch your body as if it’s mine
To bring you close and hold you tight
I tell you that I’m here to stay
And when life gets tough I’ll take you away
I tell you not to push me away
You stare at me and then you say
“You have never caused me pain
I care for you love is not the same”
I shield my face I want to die
My heart only aches for you inside
I wish for you to only say that here I am and here I’ll stay
I try my best to not look down
But your face is the distance made me scream aloud
I beg you to love me just once again
But you tell me we were only just friends
Am I weak to go this low or am I just afraid to be alone?
But I’ve told you before in a note that I wrote
That your smile to me is this world alone
Your reasons for taking my hand
And holding me close until the end
I’ll protect you from this world in mind
And stay right here next to your side
You don’t know how much I want to stay here next to you
How I hate not to be beside you
You don’t know this but I’ve almost broke into tears
Because it wasn’t me, so close to you
I will always be happy if you’re happy but…
I think you know this, that it pisses me off
How I have almost lost it at one time
How I wanted to destroy this person
The moments where I wanted to kiss you
Right in front of everyone
I wouldn’t have cared what they thought
Because at that second the world I would’ve been in
So far away
But I have a fear of hurting you
It’s the last thing I would ever want to do
To make you feel uncomfortable around me
To make you hate me
I know you never could but it still scares me to death
I could stare at you forever
If only…
I could stare at you day and night
I’d hold you close with all my might
I’d stroke your face left to right
To hear your voice so full of joy
To see you laugh
I may not be the one specifically making you in such high spirits
But I’m grateful that you are
Because I know I can’t do much
But if I every made you smile or laugh
You just don’t know how happy that would make me
To know that I have made the one I care for the most smile
I don’t know what you think of me now
It scared me to death at first
Cause I thought everything would change
Between us
In my head for some reason I thought you would hate me
I’m sorry for the way I am
I don’t know why but I just am
I’ll shield you from this place called life
The things that hurt the most
Well if I can
I doubt I can though
I doubt I can do anything for you
I don’t love you
It’s more than that
There is something about you
That I find interesting
Love is something that can only go both ways
I can never truly love you if the feeling is not returned