Why die

bloodless

blood is what covers me
blood comes out of me
eventually no more will be left
or i wish that would happen
i'm no one anymore
but call myself someone
certain other names i call myself
most of which i deserve
i don't know who i am
i don't know how to feel
being happy is my goal though
the only way to reach this is
through the help of others
before death takes me
let me meet real friends

forgotten words

to those words lost in my mind
i wait for your return so that
i can share with the whole world
i wish not to die with all this secrets
but to share them with everyone
so goodnight goodluck maybe i'll see
all of you tomorrow

talking like if you were listening

so tired of everything
no one is listening
........
sighing and crying
lost forever

pain

oh the burning pain
my head is hot but i
keep thinking i try to
stop thinking but i can't
there isn't anything for me
just one person
she is my single living constant
that sustains me and keeps me
from dying and leaving forever
i love her and i know she cares
not because she said but because
she shows it to me i don't care
about making myself happy just
knowing she's safe makes me
that way every day i think
and sometimes she comes to mind
but so distant we are sometimes
we forget who really is there
but in the end we are both there
for each other wee were never alone

advice

I give advice
i feel like i'm listened to
but then you do the
opposite of what i said
i don't really understand why
i feel like you lack reasoning
but i know it's not your fault
maybe i'm the one who is wrong
i watch you make choices
one mistake and then
you come to me ask me questions
and mess up my reflections i wish you
would copy but avoid is what you do
to the choices i call right
justice seems to be not your path
revenge seems to be in you but
i tell you that that's not the way
but you go on ahead
i said that day good luck
lets hope that this isn't the
last time we talk but
here i am and you're gone
simply i don't know what
happened maybe i was always wrong
maybe you are better off but i
can't live like this anymore
waiting for you to come back