Went to a Toby Mac consort. Very fun. Well kinda. There was an annoying kid in my youth group who came and he sat next to me and kept joking around and making fun of the singers and such. It took all my will not to throw him down the steps. Plus my one friend decided to text me and some how we got on the topic of my life story and faith and such so I was trying my best not to cry. Plus we where in the nose bleed area which is very high up and my fear of heights made me pin to my seat most of the time. But like I said very fun.

So it's that time of year. That's right, Christmas. Such a heard time of year for me. having a loved one gone hurts and this is the 6th Christmas without my grandfather but it still hurts. It seems that the funness of it has gone down each year too. I don't care for the presents anymore and hanging with my family isn't any fun because all they do is judge me about things. I just want it to be done and over with... Sad really.

Well I guess I'm off to bed. Got school in the morning..Might just act sick and stay home. Not like I really miss any classes. I mean most of them are online anyway...

*Could use a hug and cheering up*