Mood: Confused...
Music: The Beatles "Happiness is a Warm Gun"
So, I haven't posted on here in a while. Actually, I've been neglecting the site for quite sometime, save for checking on my good friends' updates. Lately, I feel that the quality of theOtaku has...Well, to be frank, it's gone down. I've been a faithful member for a good 3 years now, and I've seen theOtaku go through some changes. Back when I joined, it was smaller, but there was quite a good deal of amazing art out there. Now, 3 years later, the site is much larger, but, not to insult anyone or anything, I feel the quality of the art has gone down. It's good that the site has grown, but I value quality over quantity.
And then there's all the drama with members like TwoFacedLullaby, AvariceTears, and Iruka Sensei. Now, I will admit that I was friends with TFL and AT. They seemed nice. I still talk to AT over on dA, and s/he is still really nice and has not once harassed/trolled/insulted me. I had been wondering what happened to TFL, and I found out last night that she was caught in her own web of lies. Back when the whole car-accident story came out, yeah, I was concerned. So it hurt to hear that I had fallen prey to a lie...I never knew Iruka...Anyways, the point is: where is the maturity? No, I am not going to run the moderators down. They did their job. They were professional about it. I applaud them for not giving in to any peer pressure. Here's the thing, though: While the internet does allow for some anonymity, shouldn't we all still act mature and try to be a community that gets along? We have enough drama in our real lives. We don't need it in a place we consider our haven.
Now, here is my inner struggle: I kind of want to leave the site. There are several factors involved in my train of thought.
I want to leave because:
~The site feels colder
~My fandoms have changed and involve subject matter too mature for the site's rating
~I feel like I'm only taking up space here
But...
~I have a good group of friends on here (Werner, Vacuum-chan, Mariel, Waffuru, Clozi, Pocky-chan, and DeidaraNarutoClan)
~I love how caring and willing to help the moderators are
~This was my first internet home
I'm at a loss as for what I should do. No, I'm not crying out for attention. I don't care about pageviews and member-ranking systems. I don't care how many people like my art. I was just here to show my art to the world. I can't really do that as of late, due to the subject matter of my recent art.
I'm not going to make any rash decisions. I'm going to keep my account here and lurk, commenting on things occasionally, but I won't be as active as I used to be in the submissions field. If you want to check out my art, you can find me on deviantART here, Y!Gallery here, and FFN here. If I do, by chance, draw something site-appropriate, I'll upload it here, but I make no promises.
Well, thanks for a good 3 years, Otakuites, and remember to stay classy!
Excel~
~~Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep...~~
