Mood: Beyond furious; worried sick
Music: Good Charlotte "The Truth"
Have you ever been so extremely close to someone that you thought you knew everything about them? Well, how would you feel if they did a complete 180-degree turn in character? Yeah, I'm there. See, Daku had to leave yesterday for a Tri-Beta convention. It's a school-sanctioned event...Well, I don't trust the people he had to go with, and last night, my fears were confirmed. They convinced him to do something that he swore to me he'd never do. For one, it was illegal!! Secondly, it's against school policy, meaning it shouldn't even happen on a school-sanctioned event that's held off-campus!! Thirdly, he's showing an utter disregard for his health!! Fourth, he's showing an utter disregard for his future!! And finally, he's showing an utter disregard for my feelings!! Ever since I called him last night to say goodnight, and he told me what was going on, I've been crying off and on. I'm worried sick about him, and at the same time I'm beyond furious with him!! I expressed my concerns to him today just before lunch, and he simply brushed me off, telling me that my "train of thought is irrational and illogical".
I'M NOT THE ONE DOING ILLEGAL SHIT THAT COULD FUCK UP MY FUTURE IF I GET CAUGHT!!!!!
Quite honestly, I've got half a mind to go to Daku's academic advisor and inform HIM of what's going on...Unfortunately, I have no hard evidence, so it would be my word against Daku and the other Tri-Beta members' words...I feel like I'm trapped...I love him so much, but if he keeps showing such a disregard for my feelings and breaking my trust like this, I'm gonna leave his ass...And that's what hurts the most. I don't even know if I could continue living without him!
I feel so utterly lost and hopeless...
Please, I need advice...I don't know what to do...
Excel~
