Dear Diary,
Well, it's been quite a while since I've actually posted on here... sorry... I have been going through alot and I actually changed a little bit... So many things have been going through my mind like right now. I know... I hate when this happens but I can't help it. I have that tendacy to hurt everything thta is in my life. Or I hurt myself even more than other people. I wish I wasn't like that. But I am.
One of the major things I have been thimking about is my future. This is crazy but I wanna live and go crazy and have lotsa fun. I want to go to college and travel and grow. I want to get my life started. Once I graduate from high school Everything is going to change!!!!!! This scares me... because I know that when I say everything, I mean complety everything and this makes me feel bad... but also relieved in a sad way... It's been a while since I changed and now I am fully healed from all the troubles that I went through last year and I can't wait to experience life. I was thinking to myself last night "Man, I don't wanna be stuck here while I'm not in school. What am I going to do once I'm out of high school? I want to get a job and go directly to college. No stalling because thats not good. I know it takes money but I will get a student loan, a grant a scholarship SOMETHING! If not any of those then I will work for it and get my ass on a roll!
I really want people in my life to get on a roll to! I want to start growing with them but some people won't change... I feel bad though because I may leave them behind even when I really really do not want to... It sounds harsh but I can't be held back from my dreams and I am like my grandma, "Never let anyone bring you down." She would say. I hate doing that though because I never want to lose any friends or people that I love. I have changed a lot in my life and I know that moving on is the hardest thing to do in this life and I know that it hurts people so bad and since I change so much.. people tend to not like me...
I guess, what I gotta do is think through everything. All the changes will take before and after I graduate... I hope all goes well with that too... I just gotta keep moving on though. Thats what life is all about right?
Dear Diary,
Well, I'm sitting in school right now freezing my butt off! This classroom... I can't really talk right now because the teacher is about to lecture or something... But, I don't think anyone reads this anyways... but next time I post I am going to put pictures of me up here so you can see who Faroe is!!!! YAY!
But, anyway, I wanna talk about a forum that I created for anime/game RPG. you can create your own character with it's own background powers whatever you want, and role-play with other people on the site! If anyone is interested please tell me so I can validate you!
Enchanted Sanctuary
It would be awesome to have other people join. There are only like five people who actually play there and they really want new players too!!!!
I gotta go now! See you laterz!
Dear Diary,
I'm so sorry that I was unable to get on here for quite sometime. I have been super busy with a lot of things this weekend and month. Between family problems, community services, friends, and trying to relax myself, has kept me away from the computer for a while. I know, I know, but still.
Even though no one reads this at all, I wanna say that I miss all of you! I'm going to try to make it to the chat room once I get home. I'm at school right now so I can't really do much anyway.
Right now, I can tell you, I do not want to be here right now. School is sort of stressful right now and I'm kind of trying to keep my cool with some people I know. I really miss Ben. I didn't see him hardly at all this whole week. Only once when he was picking me up from the library when I got back from the HOSA regional competition. So I just really want to see him but I probably wont until Saturday. I'm going over to his house and I am going relax and calm down because I have a feeling that this week is gonna be a rough one.
Well, I guess I should be on my way back to class. Mrs. Mentzer is going to start the lecture. I will try to talk to you all later I suppose.
Dear Diary,
So, I'm at school right now talking with my friend Celeste' and watching an episode of Hose since my teacher is away. I don't know why though. I should be practicing on bed baths and making beds but I really don't want to. But I guess this period I will make a bed or do a bed bath. I have to start working at the nursing home some time next week and I don't want to be a crappy CNA trainee. I also have to practice and do all my home work for the Home Health Aid class too. I have all technical classes in high school. Sometimes I feel like a college student within high school. But I guess thats life.
My birthday is in two days! I will be officially 18 years old. Finally a legal adult. But it's not gonna be all that great. Time to get stuck with a bunch of annoying responsibilities. I can handle it though.
Oh, also, my boyfriend made an account on here. I believe his name is Darrk. I'm happy that he got an account because he is like the only one who reads anything that I write on here. At least someone cares. You know?
I finally got ch.3 posted on the Enchanted Tales. If anyone would like to read it go right on ahead! I hope you guys enjoy it. Well, I'm gonna go back to class. Talk to you later!
so, I fianlly got the last parts of the Hillsborough scholarships done. Thank goodness. I hope they accept me. I need to go to college. If not, I don't know what to do!!!! I'm am not a rick or well-off person so I know that I won't be able to make it on my own. Not even my mom can help pay! Which sucks. School seemed to last forever today!
Well, this morning my sister had to ask complete strangers to give us a ride to school. Thankfully they weren't bad people or that would have been a HUGE mistake. But anyways, I think school was pretty boring today. But luckily, I don't have to spend much more time here like others. I get to graduate at least. but to where? Hopefully college.
Anyway, I'm stuck at the library today which really sucks because that means I won't be home until seven or so. It gets me upset cause I stay here until the library time runs out and then I get hungry and then I am so bored I do not know what to do with myself. Hopefully Ben or Ty will text me or something! Come on people! I'm so bored!
The history behind me having no ride anywhere is because my mother's car is not working to it's fullest! The brakes are down. So yeah, can't drive it.
But, on the bright side of things, I have an inspiration to bring back an old story that I have written a long long time ago. If anyone really cares, comment and tell me if you want me to post it!
So, I'm gonna get going now and to continue my boringness.... good bye!!!!
