Dear Diary,

Life is getting so tough on me.... So much that my heart is not the same and my feelings don't work right. I can't think straight and I think i am going into a depression. One where I want to be alone where I can personally enjoy life because the one person I love doesn't seem to see the same way or think the same way at all.

My Love left me but he stays beside me telling me not to go. He will love me all night and then whisper in my ear how I ruined our relationship. I am trying to balance my job and my college career so I can have a better future for myself and well, I think I am going to fall to peices.

My insides are still torn up. I am bleeding all the time in my intestines and well, nothing seems to be making it stop. I even lost my medicaid. Diary, this wasn't ho I wanted to return to theotaku but it's not like any one really reads my worlds here. No one really cares here...... no one at all