Dear Diary,

Well, I realized that I have not been on here in quite sometime. A lot has happened since I wrote my last entry. Conflicts between friends, heart aches within relationships, stress at home, at school and changes in everyday life just got the better of me and now I am worn out and catching a cold... maybe something even worse.... *sighs* that would be bad.

School is almost over. Spring Break is next week. So on Monday I don't even have to stress the waking up for school early part or anything at all! I just have to write an essay through the break but that won't be a problem at all. I just have to make sure it gets done on time or my final grade will look so poor. I am getting kinda lazy in school now.... which is bad. I am finally picking my grades up which are currently C's and D's and B's. That is horrible! I never once had a D or C for this long and progress reports go out tomorrow I think. I want to graduate so bad but if I have low grades then I won't be able to exempt the exams I need to exempt and I will fail them and then.... The worst will happen! You know what that would be too. NO NO NO! I won't let that happen. Never ever.

Friends at school are back to normal too. But I still feel hurt by the effects of it. I don't really wanna go into too much details but I will let you know that it was painfull to bear it. Almost losing a friend that you are very close to you can kill you. A friend of mine who I love so much I feel is on the verge of defriending me... He has every right too I mean... I did break up with him and all and I know how awkward it can be to be around someone that you have had a romantic relationship with... I understand how he feels.

I am also very sorry that I haven't been on the chat in forever. I don't really have a working computer at home and this library blocks chat sites because of perves and stupid little girls who like to have online sex or give out to much information on someone they hardly know on chat sites so I'm stuck with missing you guys alot. I'm just posting this entry to let you all know I AM NOT DEAD!!! Not dead yet at least.... *laughs* I'm kidding don't worry.

Now I don't wanna bore you with my life because i know you aren't very interested at all in this entry. So I am going to go now and I will post back again sometime. Feel free to comment and let me know you all still care. Take care you guys. Love ya!