I've heard before that life needs a remote control, and sometimes it does seem this way. getting yelled at would be less unpleasant with volume control, and piercing words would be a lot less so with a mute button. If you got bored you could flip channels and see other lives and scenes if your own life got to be too much and you just needed a break. A pause button, too, would be handy, to make those good moments last, or to give you a chance in a tough situation to think about what to do or say next. A rewind button for those horrible mistakes that rip apart everything. And a fast-forward for the really tough, scary times where you just want it to be over, to know if you come out alive and okay.

But life doesn't come with a remote control, and so we have to just live with it as it is. I know that there's a reason for this, that it makes up our stories and makes us stronger. But right now I can't see anything and I'm stuck here. If only I could have that fast forward button, I would know where this whole situation ends. And if it didn't end well, I could rewind and fix it. But life isn't like that.

There's no way life would just give us a remote anyways. No matter what, too many people would, in a bad moment, hit the off button.

Don't mind me. I'm just emotionally rambling.