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Yeah. Everyone in my house is arguing right now. I can't wait to be the hell out of here. Lucky thing I'm off to college in a couple months. Okay, so it started with my mom. Oh BTW guys be prepared for a LONG rant if you're even bothering to read this. So basically my dad's younger sister is getting married this summer and his older sister wants to take me and my brother on vacation just before school starts, which is cool, except it makes my mom mad because she hates my dad's family, which I can understand. Not that I hate them--they're great people, just so you know--but they are definitely not compatible with my mom. I don't know why she's so mad. It inconveniences her a little, I guess, but since they're all paying it's not like she's pouring out money or anything. So then my grandpa (Dad's father) offers to take us somewhere this summer, and we suggest Cancun because my grandma can't do Hawaii with her bad knees. Now maybe my mom's bitter she can't go too or something, I don't know. My grandparents have a lot more money than we do, and we couldn't go to Cancun or Hawaii this summer on what we have. Plus, you know, I'm going to college. Not cheap. But she's taking it out on all of us, and she's arguing with my dad. All of a sudden, even though she couldn't have cared less before, she wants a family vacation that we can't possibly fit into our schedule. To top it off, her parents might not be able to take us this year, which makes her even more upset. And she keeps pressuring me to get my driver's license though I'm not really ready. I suck at parallel parking. And now my dad's claiming that my mom's the cause of all my stress and saying if he'd been teaching me to drive I'd have my license by now. And this morning she was crying after he left, before my brother woke up, saying, "If it's going to be like this, then what's even the point?" Then she tried to gloss over the moment by walking into the kitchen and talking to the cat in her ridiculously saccharine baby-talk voice. And me, I'm just feeling pretty crazy right now. i'm stressed and I've been emotional-eating all freaking day. I try not to but when I'm this stressed and the minutes drag by I feel like I can't help it. I try to occupy my mind to keep myself from doing it. I draw, write, clean, ride my bike, play videogames, vacuum, mess around on the internet, but still all I want to do is eat and eat.

Really just want to get out of the madhouse right now. The madhouse being, you know, my house. I guess the lucky thing is that we're still going on those trips, so my brother and I will get away for a while.