"And how can you keep your feet on the ground when you know that you were born to fly?"
I was born to fly, and you can't keep me here.
Eventually I'll fly away and leave you all behind.
It's only a matter of time before I discover my true wings.
These wings won't have to be connected to my body in any way.
They can come from inside and give me the strength to move on.
Flying away doesn't mean forgetting, I'll always remember you.
Flying away means growing, and discovering who I am.
For myself, not for you. I refuse to be the person everyone thinks I am.
I want to be the person I know I am.
I want to leave the ground, and I never want to look down.
I'll wave goodbye when I fly away; I promise.
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I meant to write more, but I'm suddenly really tired.
Goodnight. :D
So I just got off the phone with Twin.
It was fracking epic, I'm not even sure what we said.
But we made up, and it made me feel better. :D
I started talking in whatever language, and she asked what I was talking about, I told her it was Jewish. :D Then got confused, and we both googled to see if Jewish was a language. Rofl.
Which got us to google maps or something, and she started looking for my state and couldn't find it. Then she found it but couldn't find my town, and I was sad. D:
But it was better because something else happened that I can't remember. Hahah.
I plan on redoing my intro for this tomorrow. I have some new pictures, and I'm bored, I might start tonight. Steal what Djayy wrote on my myspace. Aka, I'm so fracking doing that now! hahaa
I'm also going to redo my myspace...I'm afraid I'll mess it up, so I saved all the codes and everything. Hahha. I might get Twin to help, or at least ask her. :D
Well, I'm going to work on my intro. :D Ilyyy
then I'll wish you in a fairy tale; where you're still in love with me.
This is unbelievably hard.
"The word "love" may be only four letters long, but it is the most powerful word in the world, because it describes the awesome power residing in every human heart - emotion! But, it is a double-edged weapon. It can spur on an individual to do heroic deeds on one hand, as well as cause death and destruction on the other."
Does this 'death and destruction' mean actual things, such as cities and towns, worlds?
Or more of an emotional sense? Such as a hope, a belief? What of families? Is love destroying friendships this very moment? What a moronic question; of course it is.
Negative aspects of love can't be the only thing acknowledged however. As the above quote states clearly, love is a powerful world for it it has real emotion to it. Love brings memories and moments and joy and heartache and so much more! All in one little four letter word.
The world's fate is in the hands of this four letter word.
Yes, our choices matter, as individuals, but ultimately, the end of our story will be reviled by how much love we hold, and humanity as a whole.
Which of course goes back to individuals, we need to know that every single thing we do will have an impact on another. Each 'I love you' should not be uttered lightly, they should mean as much to you as it would mean to one who hears them.
When you promise no matter what happens, mean it. Mean it with everything you have, don't just say it, because if you just say it, and something happens, well the person is left broken.
It has an impact on that person, and they believe it. They believe it with their whole heart and soul, and well, when it turns out to be false, they're never going to be the same again.
They'll shudder everytime someone says they love them, remembering when you said it, and when they thought you meant it. They'll never be able to trust anyone the same way again, or anyone for that matter. They'll start pushing people away, keeping to themselves so they won't have to think about the empty broken promises.
They'll start faking everything, happiness, sadness, they will wear a mask, and that mask will hide everything they want to keep hidden.
I should know, I'm wearing mine right now.
Seriouslyy? This just happened?
So many people say my death would be tragic, and unnecessary.
I dispute this fact, thinking how everything would have been fine If I weren't alive.
Seriously, I'm thinking about this fully now.
edit: my father just made it clear I wasn't wanted anymore.
I just need one more reason, or has my mind already been made up?
Today was one of the best days, talking with Jack. He's honestly made me feel so much better, the thing is, for ever one person who makes me happy, there seem to be five more who want me unhappy.
I've left him my heart in my will, make sure he gets it okay?
So today was my last exam dayy, I'm completely free from school.
I passed all my exams, the thought of him didn't ruil my GPA all the way.
I still have a 3.8 [garrr]
So I've been talking to the most amazing kid ever. :]
Aka Jack, since I got home. He's freaking amazing, not only did he make my day and week, but he made my year. I swore I saw nothing however.
[He was fracking adorable though.]
Sorrry it's so small.
But this is whyy I love this kid.
rawr. :]
