and this time I'm for real.

I've been sad too long in my life. Half of my seventeen years.
I will freely admit most of it is self-pity for myself.
A very important person in my life helped my realize that I make her sad when I'm sad. Never once had I dreamed that I made that much of an impact. That they would care so much about me. I know they told be, but I've been fed so many lies. I just thought they were more lies. I never believed they would care so much about me. But I'm done being that person. I refuse to be that sad anymore. We can never go back; only forward. I'm falling away from my past.I can't live with the dead anymore. I'm alive, I walk in the land of the living. It's time to move on. I can think of them and be happy for them. Yeah I'll have my days, but it won't be everyday anymore.

I have a twin, who listens to me. Always.
I have a Jack who makes me promise things I don't want to.
Which are always best for me, even if I don't think so.
I have a Lake (Jake) who loves me endlessly. [Who makes me wonder his sanity when it involves me though.] But who is a part of who I am.
Jennifer who makes me day so much brighter and means so much to me.
Elijah who holds me tight when others can't. [I love you bessie]

I have countless others who care. So what's the point in hurting them?
I'm not only hurting myself. I hurt them, with my dry remarks. Never knowing how much they care. That's over with.

Thanks Twin. <3
And everyone else.
I finally believe you care.