I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

I find it exceedingly difficult to believe anyone when they say they love and care about me. I've been hurt far too many times to fall into a trap of lies once more. Although this difficulty of mine, may save me being hurt by others, ultimately, I hurt myself in the end.

With Elijah; he is one of the only people I can believe.
Perhaps the fact that I've fallen asleep in his lap, or maybe that he's always been there for me. For years that kind of devotion is hard to lie about. He knows everything about me, every dark crevice of my heart, and yet he still cares about me. Why? See I can't answer that and that is why I know he cares.

With Jake..I question. Maybe in a way a small child would question why the sky is blue. They can't see things another way but still, they have the need to question. Why does he love me? Does he really love me? God; I shouldn't question these things. But I need to know, I mean, he shouldn't love me. I know this, so why? I'm not quite sure, and I never will be.

I'm not sure if I'll ever believe fully when someone says they love me.
I just can't. it doesn't change the fact that I love them though.
I'm just unsure as to why they feel the need to love me in return.