Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you
Meh, I normally hate Simple Plan, but this song, made me cry.
I'm still crying; Jake doesn't want to try. Being an ocean away is too difficult.
What the hell am I supposed to do? Forget? Move on? Heal? He ruined my healing process and my trust when he said he didn't want to try. Then he said he missed me.
I feel betrayed. I feel rejected. I feel worthless. I am all of these things.
I wish I could say I hated him.
I wish I could say I wasn't crying.
I wish I could say I'll be okay.
I wish I could say I'm not broken.
I wish I could say I regret all of this.
But I don't hate him. I love him.
But I am crying.
I'm not okay.
I'm broken.
I regret nothing.
I wish I could say I wanted to live.
But I can't; because I don't.
