"The most beautiful view is the one I share with you."
Camp. A four letter word with endless memories for many when ever it's spoken aloud, or simply thought of. It starts a change reaction and you remember. Ah, how amazing remembering is.
This year, like last year, has changed me. Last year, I didn't stick with the change. I stopped believing in the power of God. I stopped believing he cared, and I lost hope for myself and for anything after this life.
I gained all of this back, and so much more. I've learned so much about myself, I've learned about others. I've honestly changed as a person. My soul and my mind. Yes, I'm still making mistakes, and yes, I'll continue to make mistakes. I'm human, it's what we do. The law of human nature is that we all sin; we all fall. How and when we allow ourselves to be picked up again is up to us.
I'm not preaching to you, I promise.
Once more, I knelt at that alter, and I gave it all to Jesus. I refuse to love anyone else above him, ever again. I've giving him my friends, my family, my life. He gave his life for me, for you, even if you can't see that. How can I complain when he had nails driven into his hands?
"If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you."
-John 15;18
I know I'm not perfect, and I know I'll never be perfect. Free will makes it so I'll never be perfect. Free will, is one of the greatest gifts ever given to us, and a curse to those who choose to take it for granted.
I had more fun at camp this year, than I ever have in all my years. Hannah. Izzy. David. Everyone made camp amazing. Everyone left something in my heart, I love every single one of them.
Just as I love you, and it'll never, ever, be enough. I can love you all with all I have to love, and it won't matter. Jesus will always love you more.
I've been making plans for my future, where I'll go to school, what I'll major in. This is my choice, but again, it isn't. God has given me a gift, and has a path for me to travel on.
Everything is planned. I need to only listen to his voice and let him guide me. He is the light I will follow on this Earth. I've been called to be a preachers wife. God has spoken to my heart about this. He has given me a strong feeling of amazing love and amazing understanding.
This is what I need to do; I am exactly where I need to be.
