Hey everyone, been a crazy while since I last posted. If you made it here, welcome to my teenager days. I am now 20 and is amazed to see all that has changed since I first started using TheOtaku. I love poetry and I plan on becoming an accountant. If you want to talk, or just need a friend to vent to, hit me up :)

I couldnt love

The doctors told me some people werent cut out for love.
2% of people only mean it.
They told me i wasnt cut out to love.
They said my heart wasnt right and my head was in the clouds.
They told me i would never find the right guy because im one of a kind.
They said i am a person with no match.
Even though every person represents a color and there are two people per color.
They told me i wasnt a candidate because nobody would ever pick me.
They said i was to cold-hearted and a bitch.
They told my mom that i never loved her and all the times i cried for her it was all just a lie.
They called up my dad and told him he wasnt a father to me.
They locked me up inside myself and hid my identity.
They walked in the halls with my file in their hands.
While i sat in that room burried away by their commands.
They mentioned to my family that i was a lie and could never be contacted again.
They looked at me and smiled and said that they were my only friend.
I hate them all and i still do by the way.
So i guess its true what they say.
I couldnt love not then and not today.

Goodnight, Sleeptight my love

He watched me clib the stairs with heavily eyes.
I clutched my teddy bear and dragged a blanket.
He laughed when i screamed....
He watched me slip into my pajamas through the window.
I shivered in fear that i was being stalked.
He laughed when i screamed....
He watched me close the door and slip under the thick blanket.
I shut my eyes tighly and hoped nobody saw me.
He laughed when i screamed....
Thats when he opened the window and sat at the foot of the bed.
I gulped and hoped invisibility was possible.
He laughed when i screamed....
Thats when he gradually took off the blanket and touched me with cold hands.
I never looked at what he was doing.
He laughed when i screamed....
He encouraged the pain.
I screamed and shouted but nobody could here me.
He laughed when i screamed....
He whispered words only i could hear.
I cried and struggled free.
He only seamed to laugh when i screamed.
That was his pleasure.And my torture.
"Goodnight, sleeptight my love"he mummbled when he left.
I sat up screaming and sweating that night.
He laughed when i screamed.
Then i saw him....he was in the tree at the window saying "Goodnight, sleeptight my love. I hope you had fun....."

What the Hells going on

I dont understand..Tammy's wedding is in five weeks.So im losing her and Night. Ok my friends at school(The three i do have)arent talking to me...And well my life is going down the drain and writing isnt helping me like it usually does..What the hell is happening to me*Cries*

Spring Break??

Well im on Spring Break..Im at my dads right now...On Monday im going to the Zoo and on Tuesday im going to a Seaquarium...Zeek belongs in the Zoo and Daisuke needs to get eaten by sharks at the seaquarium(Im jk i love you buddy!!)No but seriously Zeek belongs in the zoo...lol!!!

<None> For now at least

Sucks to be her
Cause she turns around and only sees a blur.
I hate being her
Im a bomb ready to be ignited.
Some say its blood
Some say its depression
I have such an exotic obsession.
People call it love
Others may call it hate
But i need to practice what i preach, thats my fate.
Mountains are too high
And rivers at too low
I think only the wind can surpass my undertoe.
I could be called birttle
I could be called new
Sometimes my voice resembles a babie's coo.
He may see me as an it
She may see me as a freak
Im like a faucette with a terrible leak.
Disaster seems to know me well
Cant you put me under a new distressed spell?
My hair is short
My legs are long
Now i see what its like to always be wrong.
Vampires hate me
And goths hissed
I feel like somebody in school getting dised.
Am i equal yes or no?
Of course not!
But i have not yet forgot!
When it starts to rain
My name shall be in vain.
And thats the day
When its the 1st of May.