Well, here I am. People who know me love me whether they like it or not. It's a burden since I dislike most people. You can find My actual Life HERE. I have many fandoms, and many likes but I have yet to find passion in a past time. You are welcome as long as you behave.
I figure as long as STAN can live here, I can too. Here's round two.
MERRY CHRISTMAS to those who visit here. Heck, Merry Christmas to other people too. I love Christmas. I literally do feel so much more goodwill towards man from myself and others at this time of year. It could be that I've had a shitty last few years, but I literally do count my blessings rather than focus on the bad at this point. There are so many things to love.
My theO friends are a big part of my everyday life, and I'm grateful for it. Not a bad result of doing random anime images searches 8 years ago, eh?
I had a post all planned out, but it's totally left my mind now. I know there's not a lot of churchy people who come by here. Lord knows I'm not really one, but it does seem like there is a mysticism to the season. It tries very hard to not be usurped by the Capitalism of Xmas. I think that the last few years have brought the noncommercial aspects of Christmas back to the forefront. Meager picking for presents and just hoping for a job at for Christmas helps frame things for people.
Alright, Christmas downer over. I love my Family, and I'm grateful to be able to spend Christmas with them. I took my dogs this time and they were so good! My sleep schedule is all shot to hell, and I refuse to turn on the TV or radio now that I can hear myself thing after being with all my nieces and nephews for 2 days. This is also the first year no one got sick while we were at the monastery. Glory Hallelujah!
I hope you all had excellent Christmas time and were with someone you care about be they family, friends, neighbors, whoever!
There are people you come across in life that without even meaning to they can make a huge effect on how you see the world. I'm not talking about "great" historical people, I'm talking about people you know and interact with. You (I) are probably just a blip on the RADAR of their life, but they leave a lasting impression on you before your life paths diverge.
I have had a few of these people, but for some reason I've been thinking of a couple of them recently. I think it's because I've been doing some introspection after having to defend my political stances in conversation. The Presidential race is good for something, I guess. I've tried to find when my opinions changed and where they came from.
I grew up in a really small town in Western Kansas. I lived on a farm. I raised cattle and grew wheat. I grew up in a rather Catholic home and went to Catholic school. The entire place was very small minded, and so was I. By default I tried to believe things I was told. Being Gay is a sin, drugs are bad, get married and you'll be happy. There were no opposing view points in my environment.
At my core, I've been myself for a long time, but It's taken me the better part of my 31 years to like myself. There are days I'm not there yet. You know, whatever. Two women had such great influence on the person I am, and they probably have no idea. It's been 7 years since I've spoken to one and 15 the other. As a freshman in high school, I entered my debate class and was so excited to find that I was going to be in there with Jacquie. Jacquie is, to this day, the person who has shaped my personality more than anyone. The person she was is the person I still aspire to be. I only say was, because I haven't spoken to her for 15 years.
She had this demeanor, being above things without looking down at them. She was the smartest person I had known to that point. The mind she had as a sophomore in high school still rivals that of people I have met throughout college and adulthood. Never too good to talk to someone, although honest almost to the point of brutality somehow without being mean. She never gave a shit about the cliques and that made them all want her. Her quiet confidence is something that I've tried to emulate ever since. I'm loud and awkward though.
The second person who affected me on this level was my friend, Edith. We worked together at the BBV in Manhattan. I adore Edith for many of the same qualities I admired in Jacquie; Her unobtrusive confidence, and her general intellectuality. Coherent and articulate, Esther helped me politically. At this point I was in my 20s already and as a theatre brat had gotten over my general homophobia. I was getting over my republican background before I met Edith, but she made me so much more aware of the nuance of the world from feminism and general acceptance of people to the importance of reading the news on a daily basis.
I don't really know the meaning of this post except that I've been thinking of them these last few days... That's all I guess. Just remember, you can be influencing someone just by being you.
People Go through shit. People can be kids. People can grow, people can change and people can forgive. People can also be petty and bully and pick fights tht are completely unnecessary.
You know, Lyndy has a Chat reputation. She came by it honestly. She used to whine and emo and other such things. Even she will admit that. She had a trolling stint as well. In her mind she was both defending herself and acting out against people who mistreated her. She had some time off from chat that was not voluntary. Since she has returned to Chat, she has caused no problems. She participates and is civil. I will admit, I was wary of her coming back, but she has been working really hard to prove that she is not a terrible person or a pariah.
She took an opportunity to agree with a member on his personal world that Chat isn't all that fun and that people are shitty. Have any of us given her a reason not to think chat is shitty? It was an opinion that she has ans she singled no one out. In fact, in the entire post, no one was singled out but the people who don't think chat is fun anymore.
I am making this post because I think that the picking on Lyndy has gone far enough. From many people. She's not a bad kid, and she was personally attacked today in a juvenile manner. I'm not even being veiled in what I'm talking about. Blank made took an opportunity to try and pick a fight. You can't even deny it since you tweeted that you expected a shit storm. You went to someone's world and purposefully said incendiary things to get a rise out of someone. well, you've gotten a rise out of me. You intentionally misinterpreted what was said in the post and exaggerated it so that you could feel like you had the moral high ground.
People come and go from chat all the time. One person decided to explain it. Shame on him. Lyndy agreed with him that it doesn't hold appeal and that she feels trolled there. Put yourself in her shoes, wouldn't you?
One of the greatest asset people have is to overcome things. Overcome the person you used to be, overcome the need for instant gratification, overcome grudges. Another asset people have is to grow. Lyndy is trying. Maybe we all need a page from her book.
I also ask for good luck wishes for my mom. She has a Job interview this week to be the administrator of an assisted living facility. It's been like 3 years since she's been able to find a real job. We're also still hoping for me too, btw. SO MUCH HOPE
