Well, here I am. People who know me love me whether they like it or not. It's a burden since I dislike most people. You can find My actual Life HERE. I have many fandoms, and many likes but I have yet to find passion in a past time. You are welcome as long as you behave.
I figure as long as STAN can live here, I can too. Here's round two.
I signed up for Netflix tonight. The things I do when I get bored. ANyway, I watched The Proposition and I'm watching Pandorum. How I've missed movies. <3
I'm in a shitty mood, and it's overshadowing everything. It's amazing how my mood turns on a dime. One thing that was stupid on my part that happened hours ago didnt bother me then, and it does bother me now. It was rather Kansasy and tornado-y today, and I was actually going to ask Jordan to run by the house and check on the dogs since I was stuck at work. Well, I called him, and he was with a bunch of people, so I said I was just making sure he was alright and didn't bother to ask him to check on the dogs.
The fact that he's cheering up and enjoying his life is good, and on one hand, I'm really glad. On the other, it makes me overly reflective which is stupid. I wonder if I was the one that caused him to be so miserable for so long and if I, despite my best efforts, held him back and... BAH! STOPPIT NOW!
That's all there is about that. I'm hungry
I worked today. and that was glorious in the fact that I was able to do it. Yay being employed and feeling able to do my shit.
It's 11 pm and I'm exhausted.
Who turned back time, because I'm in the mood to write angsty poetry.
In the mists of the early morn
the sounds of a distant church bell rouse me.
I pretend to slumber still,
hoping that my make believe becomes reality.
The mournful toll holds a secret
that it whispers as it shouts,
and yet I cannot quite understand.
The news is instead later delivered
by the one we both love.
The world is suddenly a heavy place,
the weight of which I see on his shoulders.
I am a mirror of his pain.
Seeing the depth of his sadness
sends me into my own despair,
but it is only a pale, shallow reflection.
I almost hope he doesn't see it in me,
as it would only seem a trite imitation,
demeaning his sorrow.
It rings out slowly.
The peal tells the story,
but I'm too close to sleep to listen.
Secrets and pain
smuggled on the breeze,
floating lightly.
That breeze gives a deep chill.
By: moletta
So, I worked about 4 hours yesterday before finally going home, exhausted. What the hell? I sit at a goddamn desk. How is that exhausting? Whatever. I was supposed to work some OT and had asked Jordan to stop by and feed the dogs. I got home and a few minutes after that, I hear the motorcycle pull into the driveway... What is my reaction? I go to the bedroom and close the door. Why the fuck would I hide from my soon to be exhusband in my own goddamn house? I just figured if he walked in on me there he might think I set it up. I was just going to wait him out, but he had gone to the garage to get something and found my car. x.x Thus he came looking for me and found me hiding in the bedroom. I'm sick, the bedroom is a logical place to be, but there's really no excuse I could come up with the cover that I was actually hiding from him. A little small talk later until I got dizzy and wasn't breathing well.
Other than that, I'm not sure I know anything....
I got my eyebrows waxed today. I'm unrecognizable. Alright maybe not, but it's still red and stinging. Blergh.
I got paid today. HOORAY. I was literally down to $4. The joys of paycheck to paycheck. This was my check with loads of OT on it. I had enough moey to buy something I WANTED rather than NEEDED! *insert surprised face!* I bought the DARIA box set. Ultimate super YAY. I grew up on this show, and it is amazing and hilarious. I am Daria. My mom said so. I haven't read all the books she has though. NEXT: ON SICK SAD WORLD
Alright. I hate being a female of child bearing age. I started to cry as I was listening to my opera Pandora station. Hormones 84:Molly 0. D: I had dinner with Blair tonight. It was surprisingly delightful. Hooray. I also had lunch with my Momma. Also surprisingly delightful. Yay surprises.
EDIT: Also I'm worrying about Giant dog. I think his hip is bothering him and giving him a lot of pain. He's been having a harder time getting up into bed or even onto the couches recently. He's heavy, and I'm afraid his hip is going to go bad and I don't have a ridiculous amount to replace it. I'm going to make a Vet appointment and get him some arthrits meds though. Poor Kid.
