Well, here I am. People who know me love me whether they like it or not. It's a burden since I dislike most people. You can find My actual Life HERE. I have many fandoms, and many likes but I have yet to find passion in a past time. You are welcome as long as you behave.
I figure as long as STAN can live here, I can too. Here's round two.
I am drinking beer at noon on tuesday...
Okay, not quite, but the wine is all gone, and I'm not sure when that happened. Oh well.
One of my dogs tried to run away. She came home the next day. It was a short lived escape. I guess she missed me. I'm very missable. Maybe the dog should talk to my husband, although we are still talking almost daily, random or not. I had a thought that maybe we're just good at dating and not good at being married. who knows? definitely not me...
I fucking joined facebook cause I was bored. That's the danger of leaving me alone. If you're on facebook, you might look me up, or not. It might be better than myspace, I don't know yet.
I'm not doing a lot lately. I went out with Amy, and I'm glad I did. I have wonderful friends, and I'm so grateful to everyone for being so supportive and loving to me in my emo-ness and personal melt down. That's right, I'm making fun of myself for being emo. My cousin, Kim, said I was being dumb and I'm allowed to mourn, and it's actually good for me, but I still feel silly. I'm no longer breaking out into random bouts of sobbing and anger, just my normal anger...
I realize many people are worried about me, and I love you for it, and I'm sorry to cause trouble. Yes, it's a hard time for me, but I don't want to be a cause of worry. So, don't worry, but I'm always ready to accept pity.*insert stupid winky face here* Really though, to know you're worried make me feel loved, but I know you love me without the worry. *smooch*
I DON'T HAVE TO WORK MONDAY, that is exciting... I don't know what I'll do, but it will be spectacular!
Alright, So I had a big weekend. My younger brother took his final vows as a Benedictine Monk, giving his life to god and the monastic life. It was a huge event for our family and so many people showed up. It was awesome. I really was glad to be there, but I was very worried at the same time. For that, my sister says I'm a dope.
The rest of my family got there Friday, but I didn't get up there until Saturday. Then extended family members continued to show up, and even some friends from the past. It was really a wonderful gathering and as close to drama free as anyone can get, especially with my personal drama and my older brother having some of his own. My Grandmother came and was fairly well behaved, the herds of children were good. It was just really nice.
As for the ceremony, it was really lovely... It was a Mass, of course, but at the homily Br Victor and another man who was also taking his final vows approached and were asked to profess their intentions, after the intial questioning they took turns reading and signing their solemn vows. They then laid down in the aisle and were covered by a funeral cloth to signify their death in the material world, I guess, and the the cloth was removed after some prayers and they rose and raised their arms and sang in Latin some thing the I dont know. This is a really bad description, but it really was very excellent.
I am watching "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind." I love it, and so should you. I may be the most romantic thing I've ever seen, but my sense of romance is off kilter.
I'm feeling lighter and more relaxed than I have in weeks. I gave up the high road and my dignity and openly wept and begged my husband to stay yesterday. It's not working, but after hours and hours of crying and talking and consoling and being exhausted, I am finally reaching reluctant acceptance. I have no idea what is going to happen next. He went apartment hunting today. But at least he's staying in the city, unless he has lost his job. Then he might not...
As far as anything else. I have no idea what is going on in the world. I've been very self absorbed lately. Except for THE OLYMPICS. I love them. That and the Russia/Georgia conflict. I fing the whole thing VERY interesting. I do not trust Puttin for anything except trying to strengthen Mother Russia...
Oh well, ce la vie
Alright, I'm on lunch at work, and today hasn't been terrible. my customers have been nice for the most part, and not time consuming, which is good. What is it about cafeteria sloppy joe that makes me happy-ish? I will never be able to tell you.
Watch the Olympics. They are excellent and exciting!
My younger brother is taking his final vows next Sunday. This is a huge step in his life, and I'm kind of excited for him. Not to mention he's moving to Washington DC on the following Monday to get his Master's Degree. No wonder He's the favorite.
thanks to those of you who are being a huge support to me, and I'm sorry I'm being a huge whiney baby. It's okay, I can admit it. I'm gonna try and not be a sad sack of shit anymore.
Schultzie, don't cuss in the chat.
*smooch*
I'm chillin' watching Olympic gymnastics. The American women are not doing all that well. I just want to say, if I've never said it here before, I love Bob Costas. I have to say, I think that balance beam may be my favorite womens gymnastic event. I'm not so sure I enjoy the new scoring.
I'm at the apartment all alone, and Liz left for Virginia today. She'll be gone for a month. I don't know how long I'll be here, but it's slightly awkward hangin' out with just Ian, Liz's boyfriend, and Sage, their two year old daughter. I miss Jordan, and I am very tempted to go home, but this is my power play, and I can't ruin it for myself. I did go home for a bit both yesterday and today. I stayed about an hour or two both days. It's nice to see him, and they were pleasant visits. He asked if being away is helping me at all and I don't really know. I just wonder if he's missing me at all, but it would be both needy and stupid to ask. It's a good sign that he asked me, at least I'm taking it as one.
Schultzie and RED, congrats on being promoted to LEGEND. That's great. I'm going to spend my life as an otakuite.
my nephews start school tomorrow, and my sister is so excited. Of course, their starting school means that her part time job at school is going to start again too. She's kind of less excited about that. It was super awesome to hang with her and her family yesterday, but I pulled a muscle in my calf. BOO!
Back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a little weird. A guy I'm aquainted with at work passed away this weekend. None of you will ever know him, but I hope you believe me when I tell you, the world is a less friendly place without him.
