Alright, I've been a sad sack of shut lately and I'm sorry and I also cannot help it. I am not seeing an end to my troubles anytime soono I'm tired of being sad and I don't deal well with feeling helpless.

I'm posting from the blackberry ob my lunch, forgive any typos.

I'm no good at Rock Band. Oh well, I wasn't cut out to be a star.

So I keep trying to avoid talking about my personal turmoil to my face to face friends, they all can tell something is up, but they don't know what.I suppose I should talk about it with someone, buyi have trust and intimacy issues, so I'll put it here on the internet where total strangers can judge me and comment on my issues, decisions and behavior. God, I'm on the verge of tears all day, every day and I can't fix it due simply to the fact that I'm the only one trying. Oh well, lunch is over, catch ts later.