so falls wichita falls.

I couldn't sleep last night after my anxiety ridden day yesterday. I called in FMLA to work today. I am still in a weepy state> Blair triggered it, but I think Jordan made it worse. I asked him if he could spare half an hour to just give me someone to vent to. What did I get? "Well, I can in a couple of days, but I'm out right now and busy tomorrow." It was 5 in the fucking afternoon and you cant excuse yourself from being "out"? I'm pretty sure that I am jealous that he has increased his sociality while I have become mostly a hermit. It still bothers me that before we separated he wouldn't get off the couch for almost a year except for work, and now he's "out" most days a week. I"ve come to terms with the end of our marriage, but if/when he does start to see other people, it will devastate me.

Thank God I have med leave for crazy. My hip hurts from my fall yesterday. I feel like I'm feeble. [/emo again]

[edit]Jordan had time to see me today. We had a couple of beers and hung out for like 4 hours. we are both miserable. I'm kinda glad. Not that I want either of us to be miserable. I'm just glad I'm not the only one.