Good Lord, I have been having some ridiculous acid reflux lately. Probably mostly due to the fact that I didn't eat for several days. Now, before people jump my shit, I know it's bad to not eat. I know that I'm a terrible example, but whenever I tried, I just felt terrible and I got sick... No use wasting it if I wasn't gonna keep it, right? I finally had two separate meeals today, and I still feel terrible.
I had coffee with Kat tonight. It's weird how people can grow up, even in adulthood. I'm mostly referring to myself here. We had a talk about all my drama shit... and how blah blah blah. she asked how I was, and you know what? I'm weirdly alright. I have my fits of rage, and I left the house when he came over to do the promised yard work so I wouldn't see him. All in all though I feel I'm doing remarkably well. I'm afraid I'm just subverting the terrible feelling else where and they will rise again, but for all intents and purposes, it's just one more thing going on in one more day. To me and my circumstances, tomorrow is just like 2 weeks ago.
I did have a hilarious bad idea today. Jordan is a bog fan of Gilmore Girls and in one episode, after Jess dumps Rory Loralei and Rory throw deviled eggs at his car. I was viciously tempted to do that tonight. Part because I have fits of rage and part because while he'd be mad, he would also laugh because he'd get it. I was then angry because I couldn't in good conscience do it and this fabulous idea was going to go unappreciated because I no longer feel free to just text him or write on his FB wall and share things of our mutual humor or interest.
When he was here the other night, I told him that he is still one of my favorite people to have a conversation with, and I hope that they can continue. His new circumstances, however, will make that almost impossible. I would feel invasive and you can be damn sure, if the girlfriend came home to find the ex-wife just hangin' out on the couch watchin' 30 Rock with him, his life would not be so easy for a while. He, being dumb and male, for some reason thought that this next step might make spending time together less awkward. Um, yes, if it's only your feelings being taken into account here.
No more dwelling. My friends are awesome and drag me off of my couch and get me out. I don't want anymore beer though... My nephews start school tomorrow. I think starting on a FRIDAY is STUPID. So there, and with the heat, ugh...
I've been watching Skip Beat! all day. It's super great. God, where did my enjoyment of cute stuff come from? Episode 2 and 3 were way too relateable for me... heh. I think I might dye my hair orange now. I already chopped it off. Oh yeah, I chopped off about 12 inches of hair yesterday. My hair is still to my shoulders...
SunfallE has entrusted me with being a rotating Chat mod. I do enjoy lording power over people. Eh, according to Katana, I don't have a stick up my butt, so I might end up being too lax.
The sky clouded up and I couldn't watch the meteors. *sad face*
