So I was on that diet, and I'm pretty sure I accidentally damn near killed myself. That's hyperbole, but it felt like it. I thought that I was just weak from how few calories I had been taking in, but it wasn't that at all. I naturally have a very mild case of anemia. Usually I deal with it easily (not at all) because I eat a lot of red meat. I never think about it. I mean never, literally. Well, I should. I was so weak last Tuesday that I left work. I called in Wednesday and Today. I figured it out over my weekend (Thursday/Friday) when I found all the little bruises on my body. Low iron levels cause people to bruise easily. Even though I went off the diet Monday It took until tonight to feel better, and I would like to stay home tomorrow as well if I can work it out.

Anyway, in all that time basically stuck in bed or on the couch I have watched all 3 LotR movies and all 7 of the Harry Potter movies on DVD. I even mustered the strength to go see the last one at the theater again yesterday. I made it to our "world class" IMAX theater for the first time. It didn't seem any better than the regular, just bigger.

So, on to the rest of my life. I'm supposed to start that new job next monday. I still have no idea what I am going to do. It's the same job, different company, with less pay. I don't want it, but I'm so afraid the second I tell them "no" something bad or stupid or both will happen at my current job. I'm really just stuck. I've been applying places since Feb and this is the first offer I've gotten. Sane and relevant advice is welcome. I think I'm getting an ulcer over it...

EDIT: maybe some info on my struggle would help

I work for T-Mobile. Their parent company told them this year they won't bankroll them anymore since T-Mobile USA has never once made a profit. ATT is trying to buy TMobile USA. No one knows if we'll have jobs afterward or not, though the "excellent employee base" is supposed to be one of the things ATT wanted in the deal. BUT if the acquisition by ATT doesn't go through, TMobile USA will cease to exist not to long after that. BUT if the merger does go through and they don't lay us off and we become ATT employees there's a $1500 retention bonus. I'm just afraid I'm
going to take a paycut to be just as unhappy.
I'm tired of being afraid, afraid of getting fired, afraid of not meeting my expectations for stats, afraid of what will happen either way... No me gusta.

EDIT AGAIN: I have made up my mind to take new, lower paying job. I have come to the conclusion that I think it's more the environment that makes me unhappy than the job(although the job doesn't help).