Hi kids.

Feeling pretty okay about today. Keeping why to myself for fear of bad luck.

Random silly thing little thing here. I am a bit school girlish here. On the rare occasion that I do leave my house, one of the people I hang out with is this guy. We Have fun, we laugh and I can't tell if we're just laughing and having fun or if he's actually flirting with me. I'm flirting with him. He could be obtuse or oblivious. Maybe he just thinks I'm a funny fat kid and likes to laugh at my jokes.

As I said previously, I'm kind of glad I'm not dating as I'm getting enough rejection in the job search thus far. It has gotten to the point though that I am ready to just say, "Dude, I'm flirting with you." The immediate reaction from him will be an, "Oh my God." What I wonder about is what comes after that. Whether it's, "Me too," or, "I didn't realize, I don't....blah blah blah fill in banal rejection here." I don't want to deal with that, so I continue to sit around and be funny. Being funny allows me to be a social fat kid.

So, do I continue to be a funny fat kid or do I fess up and alienate this thing I have going on? I'm conflicted.