Are you making bathtub gin?
I feel awful tonight. I have had a headache going on 4 days now and I have a terrible metallic taste in my mouth. I'm probably dying because I'm not dramatic enough.
It's been raining for two weeks and we're all floating away here on the Great Plains.
My roomie found a place of her own and now it is very quiet in my house. I haven't decided what to fill the empty room with. It might just sit empty for a while.
I miss this place. I come back often and look at things and hate Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and any multitude of things for stealing myself and everyone away.
I still like my job for the most part. I have been there six months. When someone asked when I started, I answered, "November 11," in a very bad English accent without even thinking (hashtag Darker Than Black).
My dogs are good, I suppose. I have had puppy fever for a while now, but then I remember you have to teach them EVERYTHING and get over it. But..... PUPPIES!
Randomly thinking about Jordan a lot the last few months. Like it bothers me how much. How much I hate him and how much I don't. How broken I am and that's not even his fault lol. How stupidly happy he probably is with Miriam. How much I hate the name Miriam... A lot of thoughts, and dreams. He hasn't left me alone for a while when I sleep. It makes me wonder if bad things are happening to him as that usually happens when I dream about people.
I used to love this boy name Michael. Completely unrequited, but we were buddies. This man has literally walked away from things that should have killed him more often than a person can count on a clumsy shop teacher's hand. I always had a dream about him the night before. Even into adulthood when I hadn't seen him in over a decade. I dreamed about him but didn't call him. I heard later that he's had a work accident around that time that was rough but he's good as new.
Weird.
My kid will be ten in July and I am almost bursting into tears for no reason writing that.
My life is a chess board and I'm the only one using the white squares. I'm missing everything.
